Don't be afraid of wanting something more

Emne: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Lør Aug 14, 2021 9:23 pm

What a fucking summer. He had lost his mother just before school had ended, then been taken away by his father and not been able to take the exams to pass the first year, so here he was again on first year for the third time. Now, if that had been it then he might have been in a better mood. But he wasn’t. Because he had been kidnapped by his own father, gotten help from an Archangel. Been in a huge fight with his sister. Lost his virginity to a girl that hadn’t called her back, and when he had tried to find her, then he had found out she had a bloody boyfriend. Of all the things she could have done to him, he had turned her into a big fat joke. He had cared, really; cared. And she hadn’t even had the decency to tell him that she had someone else. Especially since it had been his first time too. How special that had been.

At least the summer had brought another good thing, besides reuniting with his twin. He had been able to get a friend in Rose, that first had looked like she wanted to rip his throat out after he had met her. But after some time where they had talked, she had warmed up to him. They had even met in group therapy, and it had helped talking with someone outside the family that understood losing a family member.

Now there was another good thing about being friends with Rose. She had been very understanding when he had talked about what had happened with him and Taylor, telling him that she would be there if he ever needed someone to play his pretend girlfriend to make her jealous. Not that Kemuel had thought he needed that. But sitting in the great hall getting announcements how this year would be now that Alison had taken over the job as headmaster and meeting all the new teachers. He had placed his arms around Rose sitting with her between his legs kissing her by her ear. And every time he had caught Taylor’s attention he had looked straight into her eyes, almost daring her to say something. Because of course she was sitting there with the bloody douche of a boyfriend. What did that jackass have, that Kemuel didn’t?

He got up and said goodbye to Rose as she was to go into another class, he had an hour before his classes started. So, he hung back with some of the others from his year. Only to excuse himself as Taylor seemed to come closer. He wasn’t going to have any of that.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Lør Aug 14, 2021 11:57 pm

School had started and Taylor was going to attend her first year the academy. Of course, nerves were all over by having to be social all day, and not knowing anyone except for very few people. She had been in need of having a small stress ball with her which she had made herself, to try and keep her from picking the skin or biting her nails. Besides from that, she sat next to her boyfriend Hunter who didn’t share the same year as herself, him with the arm around her, not really paying attention to whatever she did with her ball or where she looked. Occasionally, Taylor’s dark eyes reached Kemuel who seemingly stared right into her soul. It was incredible how comfortable she had felt in his embrace about a month ago and now she felt like she was being skinned with his eyes. She didn’t dare to say a thing and eventually sought Hunter’s hand for comfort. His hand didn’t even hold onto hers but was just present for her to hold onto or interlock with. She didn’t dare to say a thing to Hunter because if he asked why she was ‘being extra needy’ she needed some kind of excuse and she couldn’t just point at Kemuel and say that him kissing his girlfriend or whatever she was, was bugging her. That would be odd, right?

It was unfair how Kemuel had been in her head ever since their first meeting and how she had continued to compare what Hunter did that she was sure of Kemuel would do differently. Right now, as she saw how he enjoyed the other girl, he was almost sure that Taylor had been one of many and now he just tried to make her jealous so she would approach him. And it fucking worked. Douche bag.

When the announcements were over, Taylor received a pat on the shoulder before Hunter disappeared to attend his class. Taylor pressed her lips together and for a moment she looked after Lauren, hoping that she was to be found somewhere. But no. Instead of finding Lauren, her eyes landed on Kemuel, and she started to approach him. She wanted to tell him, that whatever thing he was trying to do didn’t work. She wanted to lie so he would stop whatever he had going on. She noticed how he excused himself and seemingly was about to leave the conversation he was in, and therefore sped up and started to jog after him, “Kemuel,” she called, “Hey,” she said. Finally, she reached up to him and started to walk next to him. “Can we talk?” she asked with a frown between her brows. “This kissing booth you’re having ain’t working, okay?” She took a sharp breath in and tried to let her hand grab onto his shoulder to try and turn him to face her, “Kemuel” - “Can you please stop staring at me when you kiss your girl?” she asked raising her brows.
Not far away stood a short redhaired girl and eavesdropped on the conversation, getting the hint of Kemuel not really wanting the conversation. This girl was on Kemuel’s side and didn’t hesitate to make herself visible to Kemuel while she transformed herself into a being who looked completely different than Taylor. Pale, blonde, straight hair and with more curves than Taylor. She wouldn’t interfere before she was certain that Kemuel wanted her help.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Søn Aug 15, 2021 8:55 am

He wanted to tell her to fuck off, but he just kept walking. Having longer legs in this scenario helped him not having to look at her face. He didn’t answer her when she was walking beside him, asking if they could talk. No, they couldn’t. But the words didn’t leave him, as he wasn’t sure that he would be able to say what he wanted. He was still so completely infuriated with her. It had broken the last piece of his already broken heart, to see the girl that had mended some of him that night, finding someone that wanted to be with him and felt like him in the sense of feeling overwhelmed with people. And then just to find out, that it had all been a giant fucking lie. He wanted nothing more to hate her, and he hated himself for not being able to.

She felt her hand on his shoulder and with a grunt he turned around letting her hazel eyes find her brown. A mocking snort left him as she asked him not to kiss Rose while looking at her. First off, he hadn’t even been near her mouth, she had kissed her cheek and by her ear. Light small kisses. He wasn’t about to put anyone in an uncomfortable place. But luckily for him, he had friends around him, that wanted to be there. After meeting Rose, he had also met MJ. How easy it would be if he had just been able to move on from Taylor with one of them. But it wasn’t like that.

“Yeah? You want me to stop?” he took a step towards her almost sneering “Well I would have liked not to have sex with girls that already had a boyfriend, and now I have to see you walk around the halls together being all lovey and dovey” he sank and let his eyes roam to the side, seeing how MJ stood close by, why had she transformed? He had always liked the original Mary-Jane better. But he also understood the need to be someone else to gain confidence. “So if you have a problem with me having someone else, then look the other fucking way” he walked away and straight over to MJ, placing an arm around her shoulder “hey, everything alright?” he asked with a smile.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Søn Aug 15, 2021 11:36 am

It was no fun being the short one and having to keep up the pace, luckily it succeeded with having him turn around and being able to talk to him, even though it didn’t seem like he wanted to listen. He seemed so bothered by the fact that she called him out of being annoying.
She hadn’t expected him to step closer to her. The way he presented himself this time seemed overwhelming, more than Zadkiel had been that day. Towering over her made he feel smaller than she already was and she shut her mouth like an oyster and stop breathing properly. He called her out, so directly that it run down along her back like cold slime. She wanted to flee, hide away or… She just wanted to cool down and get her mind straight, because the way she felt he almost attacked her with his words were hurting.
So, if you have a problem with me having someone else, then look the other fucking way.

Taylor wished to protest, but before she could say anything he had passed her and swung an arm around yet another girl. The girl looked nothing like Taylor, being perfectly pale with light hare and the lightest blue eyes. Mary-Jane wrapped one arm sound the waist of Kemuel put her hand on Kemuel’s chest looking up at him with her sweet eyes, “I just missed you,” she said with a perfect smile Even Mary-Jane’s voice had changed a bit as she had transformed. Taylor wished to vomit by the overload of sweetness the girl beamed of and turned her head away. Like he said, if she had a problem, look another way. She felt her heart hammer against her chest, and she tied her hair up in a bun before she picked up her phone which she hadn’t had with her the first time they had met. She texted her sister that she needed help as soon as possible. It wasn’t like Taylor wished to put the Serpents after Kemuel, she just needed guidance. “Is this girl bothering you?” Mary-Jane wondered, looking somewhat tired at Taylor. Taylor simply couldn’t believe that he also seemed to be with this gal, which was why she turned her gaze towards the ‘couple’ again. “I was just leaving,” Taylor informed, so they knew she was getting out of their space. She would definitely try and text Kemuel at some point. What had she even thought of talking with him so openly? He was ruining her relationship even more now and Taylor was not excited to see when the news spread from one mouth to another and how it would end up somewhere else.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Man Aug 16, 2021 6:03 am

Kemuel couldn’t stop a small chuckle leave his nose as Mary-Jane put on the perfect show, a slow hum left him as he told him that she had just missed him. Is this girl bothering you?
Kemuel looked towards Taylor as she told them she was just about to leave. He wanted nothing more than to ask her to stay, to talk with him. But he didn’t let any of his thoughts leave his mouth and just turned his attention back to Mary-Jane giving her a soft smile and pulled her a little closer. “What are you first classes today MJ?” he asked a little curiously and tried his best just to ignore the nagging feeling in his head. It wasn’t like he was about to start a whole rumor around the school about Taylor had cheated on his boyfriend. The only thing he really wanted, was just her to leave him alone. And with that had the plan come up with that if he was with another and had friends he could resort too, then she might just have to live with what she had done. It might be somewhat petty. But at this point he just didn’t care.

As they started down the hall towards the classes that they were going to be in, he hugged his book towards his chest feeling how his knuckles turned white as his grip was almost threatening to rip through it. “See you at lunch and thank you” he mumbled as they came to where they needed to split up to get the each of their classes. He gave her a cheeky smile before he turned to the left and walked towards his first class of the day.

TIMESKIP

Kemuel moved to the eating hall as lunch came around, he was already half a mind of just skipping the rest of the day and go home. He was so tired with all the new faces he had to learn, all the information that was dumped into his head of what was going to happen this year. It didn’t seem like Rose or MJ was anywhere nearby, at least it didn’t seem like Taylor was either. He got his food and found a small quiet corner to sit down. Just for himself at least.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Man Aug 16, 2021 8:49 pm

Taylor left quickly, and as quick as possible she found her way to the bathroom where she would spend most of her time until she had to get to chemistry class.

Mary-Jane had been all in for doing the whole drama scene if Kemuel had hinted to it. She wasn’t going to let this gal provoke Kemuel. He had more than enough on his plate, and certainly didn’t need that girl to ruin his year. Mary-Jane would definitely do anything make sure that this time Kemuel was ascending this summer and not staying at the first year. She wouldn’t allow that.
As the tan girl had left Kemuel asked her a question and she crossed her arms to warm herself. “Chemistry,” she said and pulled on a shoulder and a crooked smile. “What about you?” she wondered and chose to put her hands on her hips instead to appear more confident. After all, she didn’t look like herself.
As they had to split up for each of their classes, Mary-Jane gave him a salute and pulled on a little crooked smile. “See you,” she replied. She was quite sure that she still had some work to do to make sure the two of them didn’t end up ruining things for each other.

CLASS

In chemistry class, Mary-Jane entered as her normal redhead self with the bitter look on her face, which only grew truer as she figure out who she had to sit next to in class. Taylor. Through the lessons Taylor managed to warm up Mary-Jane, even though Mary-Jane kept texting Kemuel that things were crazy, that she was in class with Taylor and that they had to talk about something, Mary-Jane and Kemuel.
As they got closer to lunch, they talked about their holiday and eventually Taylor actually tried to explain what had happened between Kemuel and her – without mentioning his name, but she was so certain it must’ve been Kemuel. Taylor never got done explaining as the bell suddenly rang and Mary-Jane excused herself and ran.

LUNCH

Mary-Jane felt like she really got to use her abilities, snaking her way through everyone, jumping over bins, in between bully and nerd and as soon as she felt like she was far enough away from Taylor, and close enough to the lunch hall, she transformed into the blonde she had been earlier. She stopped in the middle of the room and tried to eye Kemuel as quickly as possible.
There. All fucking alone in a corner. Not giving a god damn shit about everyone else, she took the shortest way towards him – even if it was over tables and others lunch. They could move. Finally, she reached his corner and sat down on the table in front of him with her legs crossed. “She is so sad,” she exclaimed, “Like, I think she really fell for you,” She looked over her shoulder just to make sure Taylor wasn’t approaching or anything. “So, if you really want to make sure she knows how it feels like, Imma do anything,” she said making a gesture with her hand to underline that there was nothing she wouldn’t do. “Like if you want me to get to know her better, I’m on it,” she leaned forward and put her head in her palms, letting her elbows rest on her knees. She looked down at his lunch shortly before she took an apple from it and took a bite. Despite taking a bite and chewing on the apple, she caught onto Taylor’s perfume before she even entered the room and slid down from the table so she could sit next to Kemuel and wrap her legs on top of his.

And in came Taylor. With no abilities, the many faces were much more overwhelming, and it was so much more difficult to determine who was who in the crowds. In her hand she had the homemade ball and the other hand held around her the neck of her shirt, picking it nervously. It took her some time before she figured where there was a line to pick up a simple salad and a pear. After she had paid for her lunch she stood quite blankly and looked around to find somewhere where she could sit and it wouldn’t be too overwhelming. She hadn't seen Lauren all day. Her eyes landed on Kemuel and his girl and it didn’t take long before she looked away and started to head out of the lunch hall to sit on the floor in the hall by herself. That was easier – or maybe the toilet stalls would be better?

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Tors Aug 19, 2021 6:30 pm

Kemuel couldn’t help but laugh as he saw the tall blond starting to walk over tables to get to him. This woman, she didn’t take anyone’s shit. Maybe that was one of the reasons that he liked her so much, she just did what she felt like much like her sister he had met once or twice. But Iris, Iris was weird to place. One second, he was a real sweetheart, a daddy’s little princess and the next thing she was smoking and hanging out of the window of the car yelling to the driver to speed up. Weird family indeed, so much different from his own.

“Wait what?” Kemuel asked and pressed his brows together as MJ told her that someone was sad. Who was sad? It took him a second to understand that it was Taylor she talked about. He raised a brow even further as she told him that she would do anything to make her feel like what he had felt like. He shook his head; he was mad yes and of course sad about the point that he had fallen for her too but couldn’t get her. But this was more than enough. As an angel he also had to believe the best in people and couldn’t really think other than it had been a situation where Taylor hadn’t known what to do, so she had just kept the secret. “No, it’s fine MJ” he laughed and placed an arm around her shoulders and pulled her close to him and placed the side of his head towards hers before he started eating again. He placed a hand on the legs that was placed over his, as he finally looked up and saw Taylor standing there not really knowing what to do with herself. At first, he tried to just ignore it, but he had seen how panic she had become just with Letha and Zadkiel. And even though he was still angry as hell, he took in a deep breath and pushed MJ gently of his lap. “[color=#7f7fffI’ll be back[/color]” he mumbled and started walking towards Taylor. “Hey” he said and pushed his hands down the jeans pocket and nodded towards the table “Come sit, its secluded and I promise not to be a dick in the half an hour the lunch break is” he tried to convince her and gave her a small but sad smile.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Tors Aug 19, 2021 7:41 pm

Even though Mary-Jane felt like she was an excellent actress, her face got a little stiff as he wrapped his arm around her shoulders and placed the side of his head towards hers. It only lasted a minute before she pulled on a little smile. He didn’t want her to make Taylor feel how Kemuel had felt, and that was completely alright. But he had to know that she was here if he needed her. “Suit yourself,” she replied with the usual tone she had and pulled a little on her shoulder. She wasn’t really that best at physical contact, but she tried to do her best when her friends or loved ones showed it to her or needed it. And Kemuel needed it, also because of Taylor’s presence. She tried to lean a little into it and tried not to care much about the hands on her legs. She could be comfortable in his presence. Mary-Jane didn’t give it much attention that Kemuel looked at Taylor, he could do that if he wanted, but as he pushed her off she looked up at him wondering what was going on. “Okay then,” she said with a little frown on her forehead. She could then see that he was heading in the direction of Taylor and raised her brows a little. Was she supposed to follow him or… “Take your time,” she called to him and waved at him with a wider actress smile.

Kemuel’s voice was heard beside her, and she looked up. Up.. She slowed down and eventually stopped. She didn’t even notice how her shoulders slowly sank, just from his presence and the fact he that he didn’t look that mad right now. “Hi,” she said letting her lips pull a little to one side thoughtfully. She glanced towards where he had been sitting with the blonde girl before she looked back up at him. He had been such a dick earlier and tried to convince her he wouldn’t be now? “It’s alright, I’m looking for a friend,” she replied, feeling how her throat dried up. She hadn’t seen Jane since they had been allowed to go to lunch. “Or, well you have the height to find her,” she tried to joke. “Straight haired ginger and some slightly baggy clothes. Jane, was her name if I remember right,” she said narrowing her brows a little.
Mary-Jane had listened to the conversation from the beginning and as soon as she caught onto the fact that Taylor was looking for her, she had sprinted towards Kemuel. She let her hands wrap around his waist and peeked out from behind him. “Hi, I’m sorry, Jane went home five minutes ago,” she informed and let go of Kemuel, looking up at him with slightly wider eyes.
Taylors eyes who was quite big in general widened a bit by the sudden appearance of one of Kemuel’s ladies. “Hi eh- Thanks for the information,” she said and was about to turn around when the girl presented herself with a masterly wide smile almost taking Taylor’s hand from holding her lunch. “Call me MJ,” she said. Taylor managed to balance her lunch and shake hands with the blonde. “Pleasure,” Taylor lied, “I suppose Kemuel has already presented me, so I guess I’ll-” Mary-Jane swung her arm around Taylors shoulders, redirecting her away from the hall, “Sit with us, yes!” Mary-Jane didn’t quite get what the hell was going on, but she had both stories and knew that Taylor might not be enjoying what she was doing right now. And Mary-Jane was right. Taylors shoulders were almost up to her ears while she followed the stubborn blonde towards the table they had been sitting at. Both girls looked over their shoulders. The blonde waving Kemuel to join, and the dark haired with slight panic and lots of confusion. Both girls sat down, Taylor with her legs under the table, and Mary-Jane with her feet on the stool next to her, waiting for Kemuel to get in the middle, even though she wouldn’t put her feet down.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Fre Aug 20, 2021 1:36 pm

“Yeah, I know who Jane is” he said and tried not to look straight at where MJ was actually sitting, but before he had the chance to explain MJ already had her arms around his waist, he lifted a brow looking down at her, almost asking without words what the hell she was doing. But he didn’t get much input in what to say or do before the blond-haired girl asked Taylor to come sit with them. Kemuel didn’t do much other than take a deep breath in and place his hands once again in his jean’s pockets walking behind the girls as MJ more or less pressured Taylor to come with them.

Kemuel sighed as he looked at how MJ had placed her feet on the stool he wanted to sit on, almost daring him to place himself between the two of them. He narrowed his eyes and then just walked over and grabbed another chair and placed himself on the other side of the table and sat down. Not long after a short brown-haired girl walked towards them. Kemuel looked up and gave Rose a small smile as she made a small sigh and pushed MJ’s feet of the stool “Forgot how much I hate this school, so many people” she said win a low tone and placed her books on the table, carefully not to disturb any of the trays with food on it. Rose eyes scanned after Riley but hadn’t been able to smell or see her. She had steered clear of Katelyn and Roman their puppy love was almost sickly to look at. “Hey, I’m Rose" the werewolf gave Taylor a sweet and pleasant smile before she started pulling out her lunch her mom had made for her. “How was class?” she asked, very close to ask how Chemistry was, but that was Jane’s class, and Jane wasn’t Jane right now. It had always been a little confusing.

Kemuel pulled his own tray of food against him and made a small shrug “It was fine” he mumbled and took a bite of his sandwich.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Fre Aug 20, 2021 3:09 pm

Mary-Jane furrowed her brows a little as Kemuel didn’t want to sit down between them. Bore. She did on the other hand catch onto the smell of Rose, and she couldn’t help but think that this was only going to get much more interesting. Who was going to blow Mary-Janes cover the first? Was this little human even able to be so close to people who were on Kemuel’s side? She had after all gotten to know how Taylor had thought things had been tough just watching him with someone else. It was incredible how much one could talk in the lessons they had. Good thing that Mary-Jane didn’t really have to participate to get the best grades.
Mary-Jane managed to cross her arms for Rose as she arrived as if she was telling her not to sit there. Of course, it was all just for fun and she gave a short truthful giggle as Rose pushed her feet of the stool and sat down on it. Taylor raised her eyebrows a little and moved her tray a bit. Both of those girls took up a lot of space. They were intimidating to Taylor, but she could find comfort in it at some point as long as they didn’t ask ‘tricky’ questions. She presented herself. Rose. Such a pretty and simple name. “Taylor,” she replied with a soft voice and picked up her pear. “Hey, I’m Rose,” Mary-Jane mimicked with Rose’s voice, only blowing her own cover just a tiny bit. She was quite sure Taylor wouldn’t be able to clue the things out – and right was she. Taylor only raised her brows in slight surprise. She wasn’t really used to powers. Not yet at least. After all, she didn’t even know her own sister was a werewolf.

How was class?

“Boring after two minutes so I ditched,” Mary-Jane lied and shrugged on her shoulders. It wasn’t unusual for Mary-Jane, it had been how Rose and Mary-Jane had met after all. Kemuel luckily already knew that she had been attending chemistry and gotten a lot to know about Taylor. Was the new kid actually that alone that she didn’t have anyone to talk to about Kemuel?
“It was alright. The teacher made quite a lot of mistakes in his calculations” Taylor replied shortly after Kemuel had replied. Mary-Jane raised her brows, which to Taylor seemed like it was some ball as thing to say, but it was mostly because Jane was surprised, she had noticed. “Ho-how many years have you a-attended the academy?” Taylor asked slowly and folded her lips and picked a little at her pear. She didn’t feel like she could eat.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Man Aug 23, 2021 9:39 pm

Rose looked at Mary-Jane as she mimicked her voice, she shook her head and couldn’t help the smile forming on her lips. “You’re so stupid, I love it” Rose teased her friend, one of the few that had managed to get through to her and made sure she had passed her exams last semester. What a nightmare it would have been if she hadn’t been able too. Then her parents would first have started to ask questions. Well, they did now after her brief fling with a man that had been so much older than herself, but really, they all just needed to try to pry into her affairs.

“mmhm” Kemuel smiled knowingly as Mary-Jane lied about ditching class, but he didn’t say anything just shook his head. Every now and then letting his eyes linger at Taylor. How annoying it was, wanting to help someone and still be so mad at them. Rose could feel, no hear how Taylor’s heart was beating, pounding against her chest. She almost felt sorry for the girl, if it hadn’t been for the fact that she had broken Kemuel’s heart. And then on top of everything else that had happened in that family.

“Well, it’s my second year, as well as MJ’s” she nodded towards Mary-Jane “and Kemuel is on his first” Kemuel looked down at his food and didn’t really like talking about how many years they had been on the academy “Yeah well, would have been my third” he mumbled and tried to chuckle not that it really sounded convincing. “Hey, I’m sure you would have passed your exams, not your fault all that stuff happened to your family” Rose smiled understanding as she leaned over and grabbed his hand and tapped it twice on his wrist he smiled and breathed out as she did so. A little technique they had learned in therapy. It had been nice finding someone that understood what it felt like losing someone that close to your family. “Yeah well, would have been nice not to take your first year over again” he mumbled and looked towards Taylor and gave her a short smile before looking down at his food and pulled his hand back to himself. Rose not really minding it and turned her attention towards Mary-Jane instead with a soft smile on her lips.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Tirs Aug 24, 2021 11:45 am

Mary-Jane scrunched her nose a little as Rose said she loved that Mary-Jane was stupid. Also, exactly because Mary-Jane knew very well she wasn’t stupid and that she only said stupid things either to get attention, to make people laugh or like her. Mary-Jane generally always wore a poker face, but something about Rose and their friendship had made her able to crack it a little. After all, they had spent quite some time together as soon as they had found each other’s boundaries and reasons to act like they did. Mary-Jane had learned that quite a lot of things had been happening at Rose’s house, and that she wished to help Rose get through things, even though it might not always be as easy. After all, had Rose sought for something that would make her feel alive.

Taylor couldn’t stop noticing how Kemuel occasionally looked at her. She had a feeling that his glances were meant in good manner but being in the situation she was in, it didn’t help her. She felt judged, by every one of them. Mary-Jane, like the others, had noticed the nervous side of Taylor, Mary-Jane picking up on both scent of sweat and the heartbeat. Just like Rose, she didn’t do anything about it yet, because Taylor was still the ‘enemy’.

Mary-Jane bopped her head a little to the side while chewing on Kemuel’s apple as Rose explained that they were both on their second year. Taylor nodded slightly looking at Rose and then at Kemuel as she mentioned that it was his first. It surprised her a little, but of course, it made sense as he explained himself that it would’ve been his third year. It left many questions for Taylor. Why wasn’t he on his third year? What had kept him from passing and- Rose patted his wrist and said something with his family. What had happened to his family? She felt so stupid now for not knowing enough about Kemuel. She just knew he had both a twin sister, a big brother and was afraid of being alone in the waters. As Kemuel looked towards Taylor, she could feel a big lump of guilt build up in her throat. As soon as she sank it her tummy started turning. She almost jumped in her seat when Mary-Jane suddenly turned and laid her head down on Taylor’s lap. “You’re a curious soul, aren’t you?”
Taylor shook her head, feeling how her heart was all up in her throat, “N-no, no,” she said and looked down at the blonde girl in her lap, she glanced up at Kemuel shortly, wishing for help, even though she knew it might not be what she would get. She was curious, but right now the fear off being judged from the questions she wished to ask was greater.
“Come on, don’t you wanna know why he’s still on his first year?”
“No- I-” she looked back up at Kemuel again, “It’s none of my business,” she said almost apologizing to him. The only thing was, that she wanted it to be some of her business.
“It’s none of my business,” she mimicked Taylor with a slight mocking tone.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Man Aug 30, 2021 8:58 am

Kemuel shook his head a little over how MJ just decided to place herself in Taylor’s lap and then started to question why she was so interested in Kemuel’s reason of not being on his third year. “Cut it out MJ” he sighed, for a moment he just looked at his food. The chaos in the cafeteria became overwhelming. Not that it was really a chaos there were just so many people. Dark spots started to form around his eyes, and he knew he had to get out. Rose saw it too and nodded as he got up. “See you in class yeah?” Kemuel nodded “yeah sorry, I, I need to get out” he breathed and then got up from the table. Then he grabbed his bag and started walking out of the cafeteria towards the outer grounds where he at least could get some time to just be and breathe.

Rose looked at MJ and shook her head rolling her eyes. Then she turned towards Taylor “if you want to make amends and get out of here, then I would walk after him now” the werewolf said with a soft smile on her lips, not really wanting to stay in this kind of drama to long. She then placed her hand around MJ’s and pulled her up “Come let’s go, I have chips in my bag and root beer, let’s go to the bleachers and read some magazines!” not really taking a no for an answer Rose started pulling MJ along shaking her head a little as they came out of view. “You really like to rile people up, huh Jane” she said with a soft smile on her lips and let go of her hand, knowing that her friend normally didn’t like physical touch, which had also surprised her that MJ had even put her own head in Taylor’s lap.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Tirs Aug 31, 2021 6:24 pm

Mary-Jane shut her mouth immediately as Kemuel told her to shut it and folded her lips. Maybe it had been a notch too much poking in the wounds? Taylors eyes darted to Kemuel as it seemed like he was getting uncomfortable. How did she know him so well, but not know him at all? It rilled up her nervousity. Had Taylor done something wrong to say it wasn’t her business? Was it her business? Was-
He left, and Taylor’s big eyes couldn’t contain themselves from looking after him, even leaving her mouth slightly open. He was in some way the only comfortable pilar she could lean onto in this new mess – except for her boyfriend or big sister, but none of them really seemed to either care or be available… Kemuel probably didn’t care either, but then again… He had picked her up from the hall.

If you want to make amends and get out of here, then I would walk after him now. It was almost as if Taylor had known what she had to do, but had been frozen in the situation and Rose’s words kickstarted everything. “Yeah, I…” she quite frantically started to pick her stuff up, not that she had much – she was just afraid she would get lost before she could pick up speed with Kemuel. Those damn long legs.
“Oi!” the shapeshifter exclaimed as she was being pulled up from her spot in the tanned girls lap. She chuckled lightly, “Sounds like a master plan!” she continued and almost jumped up from her seat to follow along. She looked towards Rose as she mentioned how she apparently riled people up. Jane. She opened her mouth and looked at Rose with big eyes before she let her disguise slowly disappear and let her normal redhead self appear. “It was good talking to you, Tay’,” she said and winked at the girl who looked at Mary-Jane very confused, though she could tie the things together, “Go fetch,” she teased before she looked back and followed Rose who had let go of her hand, “Aye! Rose!” she said and hurried towards her friend, “You can hold my hand?” she almost whispered innocently. Mary-Jane was a confusing person who no one ever could figure out what she wanted. She knew this from her father, mother, and sister. They had known her since she had been born, and yet none of them understood when things were alright, and when it was too much.

As soon as Mary-Jane’s head had been removed, she hurried to put her things in her back get up from her seat. As soon as the two girls had left she got her back onto her back and started running towards Kemuel, hoping she could find him and that it wasn’t too late. “Fuck,” she cursed and looked a little around. She was quite small and everyone seemed to be so darn tall, so she did what any small person would do – she found somewhere, where she could crawl up and see who was the tallest and skinniest with dark hair and it didn’t take long before she could jump down and run in the direction of where Kemuel had headed.

Outside.

She was out of breath as she pushed the doors open and looked around. Panting and breathing heavily. “Gosh…” She put her hands on her knees trying to catch her breath. She looked up and saw him sitting under a tree. She took a deeper breath in before she hurried down towards him, “Hey,” she said pulling a light smile – how could she not? “Care if I sit?” she wondered, even though she wouldn’t take a no for a no, and therefore sat down with her legs crossed.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Ons Sep 01, 2021 6:27 pm

With a smile Rose took her friends hand and quickly disappeared in the masses of people to get outside to the bleachers. Kemuel on the other hand had found a quiet corner against a tree where he had pulled out his drawing book and some pencils. Even though he had the ability to just draw anything he wanted in mere seconds. He took his time, watched two girls sitting and laughing while he started drawing them. It calmed his mind, pushing the anxiety down that he had felt inside. The reminder of just how much of a failure he was in life. Especially when you looked at his siblings. True, Tien had a substance problem. But she still hadn’t failed classes or done them over. He had. But before he could fall deeper into the hole he was digging. A well-known voice was heard above him, and he looked up. He furrowed his brows. “Ehm, no, it’s a free country you can sit” he mumbled and returned his attention towards the drawing book in front of him.

“So here to snoop in why I had to go first year over two times?” he asked without looking at her, only keeping his eyes on the canvas he was currently making.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Ons Sep 01, 2021 10:55 pm

Taylor got to pull a little smile as Kemuel said it was a free country, so she could sit. Well, she had actually asked if he cared, just because she would like to have a sense of how his mood was. Her hands grabbed around her outer lower leg as she watched him for a mere second sit and draw. She drew a sharper breath in as she asked if she wanted to snoop into why he wasn’t on his third year. She shook her head a little, making all of the curls jiggle a bit. “Only if you want it off your chest,” she said and pulled a light smile. She repositioned her legs to hug around them. “I do care about what has been going on,” she said and let her eyes fall upon the grass beneath them, “But if you don’t feel like sharing, I get it,” she said and pulled on a little smile, “I-” she licked her lips thoughtfully, “I won’t judge,” she exhaled. She didn’t want to poke around too much, but she had felt judged when it seemed like Kemuel had seen her earlier sitting with Hunter.
She sank a little lump, there was so many thing she wanted to say, how she was so confused about all of this ‘Jane’ and ‘MJ’ thing and how she was sorry for everything, that she hadn’t texted him back and that she never explained anything to him. Oh, there had been so many things. The thing was, Taylor had believed that finding a ‘random’ person and having her first time with would make it easier for her to be with Hunter, but whenever things seemed to get a little heated, she always cut things off. Guilt? Maybe. Insecurities about the relationship and being pressured? One hundred percent. She wanted to speak up so God damn badly, but no word would leave her lips, unless it was about a topic he had picked or it was something easy. Her tongue simply tied knots on itself.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Tors Sep 02, 2021 6:08 pm

”Mmhm” he mumbled not really looking up from his papers as she told that he didn’t have to tell her if he didn’t want to, nor that she would judge. But she would look at him different, which had been so nice that evening, she had looked at him like a normal person. Not someone that had lost their mother, or a father that was insane. Not looking at him weird because he had a sister that had been addicted. Or any other weird way. She had just seen him that night, and that had let them to be together. Now, it wouldn’t happen again because she had a boyfriend, and everything was weird either way. “First time was because intense bulling, and me being afraid of small and dark places” he started as he kept drawing licking his lips, it was true. At first, he had been bullied so bad that he in the end just didn’t want to go to school. He had found every excuse in the book, why he shouldn’t go to school. Sick, overslept. The list was long, and he became better and better at lying.

He licked his lips and took in another deep breath finally letting his eyes look at her just for a second before he kept on drawing “My mother died in March” he said “or no, she didn’t die, she was killed in front of my two sisters” he kept his eyes fixated on the paper. “Then my father decided to take me on a trip, but a trip turned into a kidnapping and I was only back with my family in July, so I couldn’t really take the exam” he gave her a short and sarcastic smile as he looked at her “and now I’m here, taking year one all over again” he sighed annoyed and leaned against the three while closing his eyes.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Tors Sep 02, 2021 7:27 pm

Taylor licked his lips as it seemed like he was considering whether or not he wanted to share his stories. She chose to look down towards where her legs were crossing while she waited, considering what subject she should pick up from the book if he didn’t want to talk about it. Oh, for fucks sake socializing was hard. What the hell did you talk to your one-night stand about?

Bullying. She caught herself thinking about how she had been bullied with her speaking skills, but the way Kemuel presented it made it quite obvious that it had indeed been intense. A lump even started to build in her throat. She didn’t even want to think about what had happened to him in those halls. She noted to herself that small and dark places also made him afraid. She pulled on an apologetic smile. She knew that he was drawing and probably not looking at her, but even though, she couldn’t help the sad smile.

He took a deeper breath, clearly having something way tougher for the second time. Even though some wouldn’t believe it, her eyes widened and got a little bigger as he mentioned her mother died in March, though it turned into a sadder expression as he explained that she hadn’t died, but she had been killed. It was even worse… And his sisters, puh… It beat her having seen her sister overdose. And he had been kidnapped by his father. What kind of man did such thing? How could a father be so… vicious?
He saw the sarcastic smile and pulled once again on the apologetic smile. “I’m really sorry about all of that,” she watched how he was sitting up against the tree. Closed eyes and leaned backwards. She wanted to tell him, that if she had known that she wouldn’t have been with him while she was with her boyfriend. “I’m really bad at this,” she apologized, “Do you want a hug?” she suggested. She knew things wasn’t going to be alright, having lost a mother to a killer and having – hopefully – no contact with his father. It would be a rough cocktail. “I’m sorry if I made the start of this year terrible,” she said and tried to pull a little smile, once again apologizing.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Lør Sep 04, 2021 5:17 pm

A soft laugh left him as she asked if he wanted a hug, he slowly shook his head. “No, sorry, but” he finally looked towards, not in a fleeting moment but where he stayed by her. His soft smile disappeared. For a moment he wondered if he should tell her that he had been a virgin to that night. Just to rub it more in, but he decided it wasn’t really worth the effort and took a deep breath in. “I don’t really think it would be good to touch, you know since you have a boyfriend you did kind of cheat on him with me” he quite bluntly said as he then looked back at his almost finished drawing and started on it again. Maybe he was being harsh, but that day where he had driven by her house and walked towards her, wanting to ask if she wanted to go watch a movie or something like that. It had been one of the biggest punches in his face, getting to know that the guy standing with her was her boyfriend.

Funny how Kemuel never really got the things he wanted. He didn’t have much thought about her making the start of this year terrible. It couldn’t really be helped; it just wasn’t in the cards that the Nelson kids could have anything easy. You could just look at how Tien had been after she had come home from her holiday with Sebastian. What a fucking mess it all was.

“It is what it is” he mumbled and licked his lips “I’ve only told Rose and MJ about it, just, it’s not something that is going to be blurted around school, that secret is safe” he stated, not that he really cared at this point. Or he did, that might be the worst thing about it all. He still fucking cared. And he hated it, because he also didn’t feel like she deserved him caring about her at all.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Lør Sep 04, 2021 10:23 pm

He rejected her offering a hug and she shut her mouth, feeling she had said something quite stupid, because she knew that something was on its way, something she should’ve known. She could see it on the way his smile disappeared. She just felt like she had done so many things wrong, and he definitely rubbed it in her face; since you have a boyfriend and you did kind of cheat on him with me. It was like walking straight into a brick wall, stopping one from getting any closer. Her gaze fell down to her hands which had collected themselves by her lower leg again. She pressed her lips together and hoped that all of the doubt went away, because the night with Kemuel had truly been magical and she just knew that she had caught feelings way too quickly and that everything with Hunter just seemed like it was nothing but a pat on the shoulder.
She could hear how he started drawing again. It had been harsh, but she had to know that what she had done hadn’t been alright. Had he felt played? Had he thought there was something more in it? Was it-was it just meant to be?

She looked back up as he said it is what it is. What the hell was that? How could he just say that. He had told both Rose and MJ, she looked away shortly. She had already figured that out. Gosh, she had felt so stupid to talk with Jane about everything. That snake knew everything. She licked her lips as he said it wasn’t going to be spread around the school. “Yeah, I… Thanks,” she swallowed a lump in her throat. She started to pick at her fingers “I know I really shouldn’t be saying this,” she glanced over her shoulder to make sure no one was there to listen to her. She looked back up at him. “I had a really great time with you, despite your brother and that,” she said and pulled a little smile before her eyes fled to her fingers. She swallowed another lump in her throat. “I’m sorry if you feel played, or…” She took a sharper breath in, collecting courage, before she looked up. She frowned a little, mostly of herself from being a coward. She quickly looked down before she looked back up, “I haven’t stopped thinking about you ever since,” she took a little break to process her thoughts and look at her picking her fingers, “And not in a… I mean I really like you and…” she looked up, “I… I’ll keep my mouth shut,” she said and pressed her lips together.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Lør Sep 04, 2021 11:21 pm

He wanted to tell her that maybe she shouldn’t speak then, when she clearly knew that she shouldn’t be saying it. But he didn’t and just kept his eyes on the work at hand, not that it was for anyone but him. He didn’t really share this gift he had found. His little secret that he was actually good at something other than sitting in front of a computer without needing to take a break. As she told him that she had a great time last they had seen each other, she finally placed the notebook in the grass and looked towards her, it was clear in his face that he didn’t really believe her. Or maybe he did, but he didn’t really like hearing about it, because it only made things so much more complicated. And when he had said that he had only told Rose and MJ, it wasn’t really true. He had told Seraphina too. But he couldn’t keep things from his twin sister.

He kept looking at Taylor as she almost swallowed her own tongue trying say whatever it was, she was trying to say to him. “Taylor” he mumbled, as he saw that Hunter was walking towards them, he already didn’t look very happy. For whatever reason that was, Kemuel wasn’t sure. Couldn’t be a crime for her to sit with him now, could it?

“Taylor” he mumbled again as she kept on going, her boyfriend was alarmingly close. “Taylor” he tried again and didn’t really listen to what she was saying at this point, because he rather make sure that she didn’t accidently blurt something out in front of her boyfriend before she was sure that she was actually telling him. Of course, he couldn’t be sure that she hadn’t. But he also a feeling that she hadn’t.

“Hey” he mumbled as a greeting looking up at the guy that had walked to them. He rolled his eyes a little over how angry he looked and took his notebook once more. Seemed like a good distraction for what was about to go down between the couple.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Søn Sep 05, 2021 12:12 am

She hadn’t even noticed that Hunter had come all the way down to them, so it was first when she had said all the things he had wanted to say, but not completely, that she chose to shut her mouth and Kemuel greeted someone behind her that she looked over her shoulder again, seeing a quite angry Hunter. The small girl was quick to get up on her feet. “Hey Hunter,” she said with a sweet voice, as if nothing had just happened.
“Who’s that?”
Panic. She looked over her shoulder to Kemuel who was sitting drawing something. Help. She looked back at Hunter, “Oh, it’s just a friend, nothing to be worr-”
“And you can’t stop thinking about him? And you really like him?”
“Hunter, plea-”
“Are you just playing around?”
“No, I wo-”
“Do you think this is a game?”
“N-”
“Fucking around with my feelings?” he said grabbed her shoulders bowing down to look straight into her eyes.
“Hunter,” she almost whimpered, but even though she did that, he didn’t listen to her and just spoke over her soft voice.
“Just like your sister thinks life is game? Huh?”
“Stop,” she whispered, not wanting him to bring Lauren into this.
“Is she even here or is she too stoned to get out of bed? Maybe you should join her for a couple of days so you can see if drugs get your mind straight or only dumber – oh wait, we already know you only get fucking dumber. A fucking vegetable.” She was lost for words. “But while you’re with your sister, why don’t you go ahead and say goodbye to her? Who knows when you’ll find her fucking puking on the floor again.”

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Søn Sep 05, 2021 8:29 am

Well, first impression? That boyfriend was a fucking dick. Next impression: What the hell was she doing with a guy like that. Everything about him gave Kemuel bad vibes, but at first, he didn’t really engage in the conversation even though every fibre of his body was screaming to get up and tell him to back the fuck off. But he had seen how that had gone when people had told Tien that she shouldn’t hang out with Judas, most of the time it had just backfired, and she had done the opposite. So, he wasn’t about to get in the middle of something where he would end up being the bad guy.

But when he grabbed Taylor’s shoulder and she started whimpering. Kemuel wasn’t about to let that slide. He put down his drawing book. And slowly got up on his feet. As he started to talk about Taylor’s sister like that, he was already seeing red. But he managed to keep down his anger and not lash out like he had did when Tien had pushed his buttons. “How about you shut up, you have no right to talk to her like that” Kemuel warned placing him in front of Taylor looking the smaller shapeshifter straight into his eyes. “Whatever Taylor says to other people, doesn’t give you the right to be such a fucking dick to her, now either you calm the fuck down and we talk about this as normal people, or I suggest you get lost, because from where I’m standing the only one there is a problem, is you”

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Søn Sep 05, 2021 9:32 am

Taylor was too focused on the man in front of her to even notice what Kemuel was doing, so when he suddenly pushed Hunter away from her, she was almost shocked. She was worried that something would happen to Kemuel, and the action just warmed her heart. She was slightly conflicted, because she knew the things that Hunter had brought up was not okay to talk about so freely and use against her, but she also felt like he was allowed to when he was her boyfriend. Taylor only peeked out from behind Kemuel, seeing how Hunter didn’t seem to care at all what Kemuel thought. “What about you mind your own fucking business,” he barked back at the angel, “I think if there’s anyone who should shut up, it should be you making my girlfriend confused and fucking weird,” he said and pointed towards Taylor. “What the hell is your deal even? Why do you care about her?” Hunter was searching for any reason for him to tell Taylor she couldn’t be with him. “Do you like her? Haven’t stopped thinking about her too? Are you dreaming about fucking my girlfriend? You should just forget all about those fucking hope and dreams you fucking loser. Nobody wants a stick like you,” he said and went to push Kemuel away, “Oh wait, maybe your freaking murder sister wants you, fucking psycho sister you got,”
In between all of those mean words, you could occasionally hear Taylor try to break of Hunter by either saying his name or trying to tell him to stop, but she was just outvoiced by him.

Emne: Sv: Don't be afraid of wanting something more Søn Sep 05, 2021 10:11 am

A smile started to appear on Kemuel’s lips as the shapeshifter kept on barking at him how he should shut up, and he had no business interfering in what ever was going on between boyfriend and girlfriend. He didn’t really care about the fact that he asked him if he was even caring about her. Because even if it wasn’t for the fact that he had slept with her, and actually had wanted something more than just a night. He would still have thought this abusive, and his guy needed to back off. He knew as an angel that you should always believe in the good of people. But this guy, he was making it very hard for Kemuel to see anything but a horrible person that needed to disappear.

As he went for him, he simply just stepped out of the way, but he placed a hand backwards making sure that Taylor was still safely behind him so Hunter wouldn’t hit her or get near her in anyway. Kemuel’s eyes narrowed as Hunter went for his sister. He had never liked this guy. “Shut up Hunter” he warned and grabbed his hand with strength that he had only gotten because being packed away in a house with nothing to do, training had been his way to escape the reality. He twisted the hand around not doing much, but he knew it would hurt as hell and watched how Hunter slowly had to sink down on his knees. “Now, I’m not saying you don’t deserve to be upset hearing your girlfriend telling another that she can’t stop thinking about them, but Hunter?” he hissed as he looked down at the pathetic man “if you can’t even contain your temperament to hear out the girl you are supposed to cherries and love, you don’t even deserve a woman like her” he twisted his wrist around even more “And if you ever go after my sister again, I won’t be this nice about it” he hissed as he finally let go of the shapeshifters wrist by pushing him away.

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