I guess this is it

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Place: Royal gardens
Time: Sun is setting
Weather: Cold, but the feeling of spring lingers in the air
Wearing: Clothes + hair like profile pic

To @Lion

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Eilish hadn’t been in this time for long, and she had already had a fist fight with Vanya and a wanna be training slash fighting session with Karmena. Great. And now she had to face Lion, who she had actually traveled back for. She didn’t feel stupid, just dissapointed in her own abilities. She had gotten some dress from Abigal, which seemed to fit well on her slim body. She couldn’t imagine Abigal in this dress however, it seemed almost like a school girl, but she was just happy to have some clothes on that fit. Plus the fact they weren’t dirty. She had snuck a piece of paper under Lion’s door asking for him to meet her in the garden, but she didn’t know if he would even show up. The sun was setting, saying goodbye before the night would come and the moon would illuminate the sky. She heard footsteps behind her in the gravel and turned around.

”Hi,” she said almost as an exhale. Fuck. She hadn’t thought about what she would actually feel once she saw him. She kept her face calm, neutral as always and waited to be yelled at. She had afterall been fighting with two of his closest friends.

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Vanya had told him, Eilish were here. He hadn't expected it at all. Of course leaving like he had was not okay, but her leaving anything behind to come here, seemed so impulsive. But then again, he had done it. He had left his whole life for his friends. He was horrified when a letter slid under his door. He was so afraid another of his friends had done something stupid. He was relieved when he read the letter. Although a conversation with Eilish could turn out to hard, it was not an immediate threat. He had prepared for it. Leaving the letter in his room, he went to the garden to meet her. Knowing she was here and seeing it, was two very different things. It took his breath away for a moment. Lion took in a deep breath and walked to her. He could be angry about the fights she had been having, but mostly he was just happy. Leaving her behind was the hardest thing about coming here. He could see his mothers again, but she was just a baby here. He pulled her into a hug. "I can't believe you're here," he whispered into her hair. He pulled out of the hug and took a step back. "I'm sorry for how I left things," he started. What he was going to stay later, might not get the best reaction, and he wanted her to know he was sorry.

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As he pulled her into an embrace she froze. This felt odd in some way, but she sneaked her arms around his waist, giving him a half hearted hug. She wasn’t good at all this emotion, and his words could have melted her heart, but this was not the time. ”I can’t believe your new girlfriend bit me,” she mumbled taking a step away. She knew he would never choose her, so best keep her distance. She cleared her throat and looked into his eyes. Again she felt the need to be close to him, but she forced herself to stay put. ”I’m sorry too,” she said nodding. But she was sorry about something different. She looked down shortly and then met his gaze, biting her lip, like she always did when she couldn’t find her words.

”I’m sorry that I actually believed what I felt. I’m sorry that I can’t figure myself out. And I’m sorry that I ever let you think that leaving me with a fucking letter would ever be okay,” she said with a slight pointed tone. She hated getting her emotions to the surface, because that meant a whole lot of other things could resurface, and that baggage she couldn’t deal with right now. Instead she looked at Lion, pressing her lips together into a line as she looked at him again.

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Lion swallowed when she mentioned a new girlfriend. She already knew. ”You and me both,” he told her. He had seen Vanya change a lot since he got here, and sometimes he was afraid she would one day wake up and regret everything she had done. He hated watching her like this, with her keeping a distance from him. He looked away when she talked. It was hard. ”Don’t blame yourself because I’m an idiot.” He had been a major jerk to her, and she deserved better. ”I left you that letter, because I knew saying it to your face, would make me change my mind. And I couldn’t just leave them. Leaving you was not okay, not at all, but I always do that. I make a decision and jump head first into it, because I think it’s for the greater good. I don’t always stop to think of the consequences. But that’s on me, so don’t ever blame yourself for any of it. You did nothing wrong.” He would hate if she felt it was her fault. It wasn’t. He took a step closer to her. ”I feel like such a jerk. You came all this way and here I am…” He couldn’t finish the sentence. ”I really do care about you, you know. You are important to me. I understand if you never want to see me again, but I want for us to be friends. Do you think that’s possible?” It was a long shot, but he had to ask.

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Eilish felt her blood boil, but she stood like a statue. Of course she had been blind to what she had felt from him, but that was always on her. However the letter was on him. As he spoke, she listened and felt him just ramble. She placed her finger over his mouth and looked at him with her turqoise eyes that seemed to light up at night. ”You keep saying I did nothing wrong, but that’s not true. I’ve done lot’s of things wrong, but those are not yours to take upon your shoulder,” she said. His question about friendship made her look down. She wasn’t a good friend, she knew that much. Sometimes she wondered why she was still keeping herself alive, but maybe it was the fighter in her. ”I want you to stop acting like a hero, and start acting like yourself – because that was the guy I enjoyed spending time with,” she said calmly and met his gaze again. She removed her hand now so that he could speak if he wanted.

”Friendship, on the other hand is not something I’m good at – I’m good at figthing, and driving motorbikes and I’m good at being a bitch,” she said with an almost monotone voice. Usually when they had been together she would have a softness in her voice, like she actually spoke freely, but this was her standard voice. The one everyone around knew her as. The sound of the Lady Bird flying over and giving her monotone sound with it. ”So go be with your friends and don’t worry about me – I’ve been through worse,” she said with a smile that never reached her lovely eyes.

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Lion shut his mouth as she put a finger on his lips. He kept quiet as she talked. He didn’t like what she was saying. She made it feel so final. ”I can’t stop. I care about people, and I will always try to solve their problems. That’s what I do.” He hated how she had changed, like she had build a wall between them. He didn’t want that. ”You can stop being my friend, but I will never stop being yours. So next time you need someone, whatever you need, please remember that. I will come.” Lion never thought of himself as a hero. He just cared a lot, but maybe that was all a hero really was. Caring about something more than you cared about yourself.
”I can go if you want me to, but I won’t stop worrying. It’s in my genes, basically,” he said with a slight laugh. ”I can help you get back, if you want to.” He would hate that she was stranded here. He wasn’t. He had his friends and his family. He didn’t know much about her family to be honest. ”I can also go jump into a volcano if you want that,” he said with a sarcastic smile. This was not what he thought she wanted him to do, but in some way what he wanted her to want him to do. Maybe because it was easier if she was angry with him. Being friends with her would be hard, but he wanted it. He wanted to fight for it.

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Eilish honestly wanted to slap some sense into this guy in front of him. She might not have moved on yet, but she was letting him do what he wanted to, because she cared for him. Well she cared for him the way she knew how to, at least. His words were narcissistic to her. Why would he keep beating himself down like that? ”I guess that’s why I cared about you, and I still care – hell I can’t delete my emotions that quickly,” she said with a sigh. She leaned her head agains his chest and exhaled trying to calm her inner. Honestly she hated that she was leaning on him, but she was so tired of fighting, because that’s all she had been doing since getting here. First Vanya, then Karmena and she had even tried picking a fight with Kyle. She was a bad person, and that’s why she couldn’t bring herself to accept his kindness like this. After standing for a bit in silence she leaned away and looked up at the sky. At this moment she knew her past self was already in the system, being tossed around like a ragdoll. His words about helping her find a way back made her shake her head.

”I don’t know what you guys did in this time, but I’ve gotten a new power – It’s really unstable and potentially very dangerous if I’m not careful,” she said. She sighed and stepped a bit away from Lion and hold her hand up to sign he shouldn’t come close. She firmly closed her eyed and exhaled before leaping forwards, but instead of hitting Lion with her body, she appeared at the other end of the garden. She look another leap forward and now stood behind Lion. ”This is how I got here – I jumped around carelessly until I felt like I was in the right spot,” she said. His words about jumping in a volcano made her smile slightly.

”If you jump, you know I’d jump with you,” she said with some softness in her voice.

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Lion hated this so much. He hated when people he cared about were hurt, even worse when he were the one hurt them. He let a sad smile slip through when she talked. ”I will never forget,” he said and put an arm around her when she leaned against him. He didn’t mind that people counted on him, leaned on him. It was how he got through day without wallowing in his own mess of a head. Lion was known to see the best in everyone, but he never saw something that wasn’t there. Eilish might have been reluctant to show him, but eventually she let him in and he saw who she really was. Her core. It was beautiful. She had so much more to her than she showed people. He was just happy he had gotten to see it.
Lion let her step away and stayed put when she put up the hand. She began leaping around. He turned to her and then again when she appeared elsewhere. ”That’s something,” he said, not really sure what else to say. ”Well that sort of defeat the purpose of my self-sacrifice if you follow me,” he said with a smile. He crossed his arms. ”I meant it. I want to be here for you. I know what you left behind. I will make sure you get back in the serpents.” He didn’t want her to feel like she wasn’t wanted, because she was. Just not in the same way anymore. He almost regretted getting involved in her now. If it hadn’t been because of all the times they had shared. He would never regret those. He didn’t know how to handle this situation, so he just tried to do the thing he did best – fix things.

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Eilish rolled her eyes at him, but she couldn’t deny the fact she was a little grateful for his words. He had been a saviour to her as much as she had to him, so the air between them were weird now. She knew she had never been easy to be around, but that small hope that she had actually found someone was shattered. Maybe love and happily ever after wasn’t in her cards, but at least she could keep herself up, like she always did. As she jumped back to him she nodded at his words. ”You are a drama queen, Lionell,” she said, sending him a sarcastic smile that didn’t reach her empty eyes. She had to distance herself for a bit, at least until her feelings were under control again. What he said made her shake her head. ”Marie is here, so you know I’m not leaving her, besides no Serpent is left for dead,” she said calmly. She let out a sigh as she looked at Lion’s face again. It still stung a bit, but she knew better than anyone that those feelings would pass. ”Besides I have some business in this time that might help me down the road,” she muttered. Not really wanting to share her plans, but everyone else was fucking with the timeline, why not her?

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Lion shook his head when she called him a drama queen. ”I am only crown prince,” he added with a cheeky smile. He didn’t like when people used his first name, but some people got a free pass. Karmena mostly, since she never stopped using it. He understood why she wouldn’t leave. ”I get it,” he said and crossed his arms. Mostly because he stood like that when he needed to be relaxed, but also because he was feeling a lot of things he couldn’t begin to understand. ”I still want to help, if I can.” He didn’t know if she even wanted his help, but he wanted to offer it nonetheless. Lion didn’t know if she was going to fit in this time. He didn’t even know if he would. It was weird that you could potentially meet yourself as a baby. He had been putting out seeing his mothers for that exact reason. It was weird. ”In unity there is strength, right?” He didn’t expect her to take his help, but he was still a little hopeful.

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//Out<33//

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