Space between - Amary (+Lion)

Amaryllis just wanted to hide her face, and she couldn’t even focus on what Vanya had said because she tried breathing normally. It didn’t go so well, but she kept her beast at bay. Maybe because it had been out so much while being here, it had calmed down somewhat. As Vanya left, Karmena decided to pull her face out so they could looke at eachother. The trybrid had tears in her eyes, but she wasn’t going to let them fall, not yet anyways. Karmena spoke and she wanted to hit her again, but she was captured in the brown eyes above her. She let her speak her mind and thoughts about it all, but Amaryllis still couldn’t understand completely. ”I can’t say I dissagree with a lot of the things you say, because I could feel you slipping away in my mind, bit by bit,” she said almost as a whisper. Scared that if she said it out loud that it would start happening again. ”But you should also know by now that I hate it when you degrade yourself,” she said looking up at Karmena as she felt her tumb on her cheek. Amaryllis leaned into the hand and bit her lip as Karmena continued with her promises. She liked the sound of that, and as she felt the vampire’s lips against hers, her whole body could have imploded that second. She could barely understand why her body reacted so strongly, but she pressed herself closer to the vampire.

”I love you too, so could you lean down and kiss me again?” she whispered agains her lips, but before the vampire could answer, Amaryllis pulled her head down, pressing her lips longingly against the cold ones. The trybrid didn’t have a lot of experience, seeing as Karmena had just given her her first kiss just a few days before. It was weird, because her body certainly knew how to react to it all. She broke their kiss carefully and sighed satified about what she had just felt. ”If you ever do something like this again, I’ll mess up every room you ever enter, as punishment,” she said jokingly, but there was maybe a hint of truth to it. Her body screamed at her to be even closer to Karmena, but she didn’t really know if she was ready for it.

She could understand the pain that Amary was expressing when she had explained herself. And she couldnt even blame her, she would have felt something similar if the tables were turned. Most likely, she'd go on an endless rage instead of being sad, or feel that her mind was falling apart, but she could understand Amary's feelings, especially after what she knew she had been through. She exhaled deeply and didnt say anything, as she didnt want to have the last word in the matter. Amary was right.
She was going to answer Amary's request, but the hybrid was faster, pulling her head down for a soft kiss. She moved her hand away from her face as she let it slide around her body, pressing her up against her own body, deepening the kiss as her hand gently gripped onto the fabric of Amary's shirt, feeling the intensity get to her head. But then Amary broke the kiss, leaving Karmena with a hunger for more. Her eyes shifted between her as her breath seemed to get heavy, though Amary's joking threat cleared her mind a little. She pressed her even closer to her as she placed her forehead on hers, closing her eyes as she bit back a smirk, "I can live with that," she answered in a warm low tone, as her voice was already slightly deeper, it sounded slightly husky.
Her hand hadnt let go of it's grip on her shirt, and she moved her head away from Amary's as she made a contemplative expression, shifting between her eyes before she loosen her grip a bit, "Day by day," she reminded herself in a whisper as she flattened her hand on Amary's back, making gentle yet loving strokes along her upper back. She wasnt going to take advantage of Amary's vulnerability, not for something as silly as her own desires. She leaned down and nuzzled her nose against Amary's, before she scoffed, and shook her head, "I am lucky to have you," she whispered in a tender tone.

Amaryllis could feel as Karmena pulled her closer. A part of her screamed to be even closer, however the body also wanted to run away, scared of what pain would be dealt upon it. Karmena’s lips were cold, but Amaryllis loved that – it was like a cool breeze on a hot day, and it filled her body with happiness. She felt her own breath getting heavier, deeper as she finally pulled away, but in stead of saying she wanted more, she made a stupid comment. Great pick-up line, she thought sarcastically to herself, but she enjoyed feeling their foreheads placed together. She could feel the grip loosen and become more of a series of gentle strokes against her back. Her head nodded by itself as Karmena had said ’day by day’, because that’s what Amaryllis needed. ”Karm, I don’t want you to think that I don’t want you,” Amaryllis said after the vampire’s whisper about luck. The trybrid felt like she was holding back, and maybe she was, but she actually wanted to feel Karmena closer. It was the fear that kept her from doing anything further. Fear that it would end badly, that Amaryllis wouldn’t be able to control what memories it could trigger when someone else would touch her body.

”I guess I’m trying to say that I need a bit more time – I’m almost at a place where I can even think about his face without feeling the need to throw up,” she said looking down. It was embarrassing, because she had felt so weak. Her spirit broken into peaces and sometimes she could still feel the numbness that the room had given her at times. ”Maybe we should, I don’t know, go out or something – I know Kyle has basically grounded us, but we could find a place within the castle walls?” she said trying to get her mind off of her previous captor. She wanted to think of Karmena when she was with her, and she leaned into the vampire’s embrace and just stood for a good minute or two in silence. Just to listen to the way Karmena breathed, making sure that it was really her here.

Karm, I don’t want you to think that I don’t want you, She tilted her head and then shook it shortly as she gently kept her strokes on her back, with a bit of a spark in her eye, "I dont think that you dont want me. I just want it to be because you truly want it, and not just something in the heat of the moment," she then explained as she leaned down and kissed her, gently dragging Amary's lip for just a second as she leaned back up, "Not saying that to patronize you," she clarified with a bit back smile.
She listened to Amary explain, it made sense that she still needed time. After all, she had been through some horrible shit, that still angered Karmena when she thought of it. But she wasnt going to get angry now, it wouldnt really help. She nodded to Amary's proposal of going out, but seeing that they were stuck here, it would be difficult to go out. However Karmena knew some good spots in the castle, where they could be. The silence filled the room for a bit as she thought of places, she pressed Amary closer, feeling her warmth that made her stomach tingle in a way she couldnt explain. "We could have a picnic in the gardens, or something like that. Sneak out some food and talk about everything and nothing," she then proposed, looking down at Amary.
She then remembered her hand and exhaled deeply, "Kyle is going to kill me," she then said as she looked down at her leg before she lifted her hand. "Maybe the date will be after the recovery," she then said in a slight irritable tone, if she knew Kyle right, he would be watching over her like a guard dog once he found out that she had ruined her leg again, and now her hand too. "Damned protective fathers. He isnt even my dad," she then said as she shook her head and put her hand back on Amary's back as her other hand grabbed her face gently, "I will get better for us though," she then promised, running her thumb along Amary's cheekbone.

Amaryllis was about to say something, but the vampire was fast and she once more felt the cold lips against hers. She let out some sort of purring noise as she once again felt her body screaming for more. As the lips pulled apart she looked with her green eyes at that small smile. ”I do want it, because why else would my heart be beating so fast?” she whispered biting her lip. How could her body be so torn at this point? She had been healing fine, and even though she hadn’t been able to talk about it yet, she felt more at ease. More like she wasn’t in that room. More her. She was happy that Karmena came with some suggestions and she looked down at Karmena’s hand. ”I wish I could do something about it – It’s not fair that you are the one getting hurt all the time,” she said, carefully dragging a light finger over the injured hand. Had she been like her mother she could have healed that in no time, the same with the vampire’s leg. Her mother had always warned her that magic was a dangerous thing, so maybe it was for the better that Amaryllis didn’t have that power. Karmena’s words made the trybrid shake her head ans she looked into those dark eyes.

”Don’t get better for us, get better for yourself,” she said in a rather serious tone. Amaryllis wasn’t the serious type, but with all the injuries that Karmena had gathered since getting here, she felt like she needed to say something. She stretched her hands and pulled Karmena closer, if that was even possible at this point. Her head she placed on Karmena’s chest, and looked up at the vampire, with her chin resting against her body. ”When you’re healed – and that’s fully healed – we’ll do something just the two of us,” she said with a smile. Amarylis’ fingers on the vampire’s back found her hair and played with a few strands between her fingers, forgetting what was around them for a second or two. A small sigh escaped her lips and she closed her eyes. Couldn’t they just stay here forever? Let it all be silent and peaceful? Amaryllis knew it wasn’t possible, but she wished for simpler times.

”If you want to you can just blame your injuries on me? I don’t mind getting in a bit more trouble,” she said carefully, not knowing how Karmena would react to such a thing.

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