Beautiful mistakes

DATE 20 March
TIME around midnight
PLACE Ajax apartment
WEATHER Raining, grey and black skies.


A lightning strike illuminated a shadow figure standing in a pitch-black apartment. Piercing deep blue eyes that looked with emotion into the grey sky where rain was falling down. Fast and relentlessly. It described her mood more than she cared to amit.

To say that that Elena had some pretty intense months. Would almost be an understatement. Not it wouldn’t almost be an understatement, it was one. Captured. Tortured. Arrested. And then there was the meeting with Jack. Meeting her husband again. After he had left her almost sixty years ago. So, she had neglected some of her duties from her previous employers. That they had even found her again, had been quite a coincidence. But after a short talk, it had seemed like they knew more about her missing seven years than she did herself. So, to say no to take this job would have been like shooting herself in the foot. Even as she knew it would take all her convincing skills. She had known Ajax for quite some time when he had been younger. Training someone like that, would always make a bond between to people. Then there was the fact, that he had some of the same powers that she had herself. Which had made her crumble with fear on the ground remembering how her father had beaten her half to death. Screaming that Ajax needed to make it stop. She had been lying in a bed for weeks after that. Staring into a wall not moving. That was when she knew that even demons had their demons to deal with.

As she stood there in the dark looking over Aston skyline. A lot of memories started to service. She had spent more time with Ajax, that she had done with anyone since her husband. Even her own children hadn’t gotten the same form for attention than she had given that young demon boy. So, she would say that she knew him quite well. And for a guy that didn’t want anything to do with his family’s business, he sure liked to stay in the upper-class. He had been so easy to find. Almost to easy. And the security in this apartment building had been a joke. Her long gown with the V-neck had been more than enough for the lobbyist to forget asking for any identification.
She slowly turned around when she heard the key in the lock. She had cut the power to the apartment by the breakers. “Ajax” she said with a low voice as her lips slowly turned into a smile. “It has been such a long time” he had really grown to be a handsome man. How ten years could change a person. She was almost curious about who he was now. Had he achieved what he wanted? Or had he been another victim of wanting to strife for higher places. Only to fall short.
“How are you?”

When Elena wanted to be loud, one would almost be surprised with how much lung capacity the tiny woman with her only 1.63 cm could muster. But then there were the times where you wouldn’t even hear her coming.
His words didn’t convince her actually far from it, and she took a step closer to him. Be there for a boy, train him and learn what makes him tick over so many years, that would always create somewhat of a special bond between two souls.
Her fingers reached out and slowly followed his jawline and grabbed his chin every so softly and made him look in her eyes. There was something behind those two-coloured eyes, those beautiful eyes that she had always admired.
“Don’t lie to me, like I’m some random acquaintance of yours” she said with a hushed voice and let her fingers brush over the stubble on his unshaved jaw.

“Forget why your parents send me, you know why they did, and to be honest I just wanted to see how you were, is that a crime?” she huffed and removed her fingers from his face, to lean over and grabbed the glass he had just drowned the last drops of alcohol from. Her blue eyes searched for what it could have been and took a whiff “hmm, do you have any more of this?” she asked, and sat down on table in front of him. Maybe she wasn’t that bad that everybody so eagerly wanted her to be like. Maybe she did actually care, even as the soul demon was starting to think about why, not caring would in the end be so much easier.

She started laughing, it was one of those rare Elena laughed, that told people just how good a singer she actually was. It was soft, round with a small edge to it. But she hadn’t sung for such a long time, actually it had been something she had done for her husband, and after he had left, she had stopped singing all together.
“It wouldn’t be the boy I trained if you suddenly started doing what your parents wanted you to” she said with a smirk on her lips, but it also told her something was off, but she couldn’t quite place what it was that made her believe that. She hadn’t heard from his parents, which now she thought about it; was a little weird. Normally they would have asked for updates, or why she hadn’t had time to talk to him yet.

Her eyes followed his movements towards the smaller cabinet. He didn’t even have to tell her the name, she knew it from the moment he took out the bottle. “Ajax your complete moron” she started laughing and shaking her head almost like she didn’t believe him.
She took the glass and took small sip, her eyes rolled back in her head “Damn that is smooth” she mumbled and took another sip. This was like golden liquid.
“What did you do to them?” she asked, still with a smile. One might think it was a fake one, but she knew how they had treated their son and Elena should really talk about raising children. But she had made the conscious choice and give her children up, because she knew she couldn’t be there for them. And somehow, she had ended up with; what had he been? Twelve? When she had met him the first time, and their training had started. “Not that I blame you, I for one actually just surprised that you didn’t do something a long time ago”

It was funny how she had been on edge for so many months. As this had been one of the worst years, she had had for such a long time. But as soon as she saw Ajax, and understood how much problems he was in, she didn’t matter anymore. She was strong enough to listen and be there for him, even if it was just for a moment.

Her eyebrows shot up as he talked about linked to a human, and a siphoner. Encounter with an archangel? What. Her face quickly soured as he talked about his father not approving of his behaviour. No, she remembered it. She remembered it well.
It was almost peculiar being with someone that talked this much, she had been with Jack for such a long period of time now, and he almost never spoke. The same with Calvin, he just listened and gave as little as he could away. She also knew that she needed to find her way down to the serpents to talk with Victoria again. So much to do, and so little time.

She hadn’t said anything while he had been talking, but it had been clear by her face she had been listing. She understood the last sentiment well. Nothing is the same anymore. And even more the feeling for trying to keep a love alive, that might not just be there anymore. Because that you weren’t ready to let it go. Maybe that was what had happened with her and Jack. Two souls just desperately wanting things to work, when the reality was so much more different.
As he waved her over, she slowly got up from the table and with glass in hand she walked over to him. She put the drink down on table and placed her knees down on the couch her facing towards Ajax, slightly leaning over and placing a hand against the side of his face. “It’s okay, not to be okay” she whispered, letting her thumb slightly glide over his cheek.
“What happened? You are talking if you stared death into its eyes and now are afraid to acknowledge what it made you realize” with that she didn’t mean about the link, about him having an encounter with an archangel. No, she wanted to know what had happened in those small hints, and him not really telling her the important details, as if he was skipping over the most important parts. Her piercing blue eyes lock with his face before she took a deep breath and slid backwards down into the sofa leaning her back against the soft cushions. Her hand glided from his face, into his hair that she stroke back before taking her hand towards her again.

She listened to what he had to tell her and withdrew her hand and put both around her glass with the amber golden liquor. Of course, she was sad to hear that he had to go through so much on such a short period of time. But bad shit happened, and she was a good case to look at to nod their head that this indeed happened. In the end she could only give him the advice she wish someone had given her just a couple of months ago when shit had gone down. Not only being tortured, shot, taken away by angels, facing off with Victoria – seeing Calvin again. So many things were still not going the way that she wanted, but she felt oddly more at peace every day that went by. She knew where she was going. What she wanted to do with her life now, and nothing should hold her back. She just needed to get a few things back in order, then everything would be fine. Or so she hoped. Maybe she should just ditch love all together, just build relations that would help her build a new empire a new future for people that needed people like her.
The matchmaker. Had a catchy ring to it.
I’ve been cursed, beaten and defeated – tired, sick and tired of being defeated.
She lifted a brow and a slight smile formed on her lips. “I’m not saying what has happen isn’t awful, but Ajax?” she said and leaned a little in, their faces so close that their noses almost touched. Funny thing that she wasn’t against being close to him, not even thinking twice about it. “Get yourself together” she whispered and looked him deep into her eyes, before she leaned back again. She took his glass out of his hands as it looked like he was about to break it and put it down on the table beside the sofa. “Now, how the hell do you expect to help anyone, if you’re throwing yourself a pity party” she asked and drowned her words with the rest of her whiskey before putting it down on the table as well. “Sick and tired of being defeated? Please, your still standing, you are still here, and. It sounds like that even people have died, the people around you that matter the most are still here” she put her hand against his chest by his heart “you are still here, you are still here to fight another day, to help the people that matters or do something with your life and live it like you want to" she licked her lips and a small smirk quickly appeared before it disappeared again "So, is there something I can do?” she asked him and titled her head while a small smile formed on her lips. It felt good, actually asking someone else that. She needed to do something other than thinking about her own mess, and how to get out of it again.

She might be a little curter with her words. Living as long, as she had, going through the things she had gone through, she had learned one thing. That if you didn’t remember oneself, you couldn’t help anyone. But she also had to remember that it was a lesson that she had to learn repeatedly. Ajax was only twenty-six years old, he had so many lifetimes to understand that.

She redrew her hand, as he pulled it away and looked at him as he walked around a little aimlessly trying to explain to her what it was that he felt about the situation. A small sigh left her lips, as she closed her eyes and let her finger glide over her face and into her curly hair.
He didn’t care about himself, so he wanted to be the hero? Hero in real life would always end sacrifice something of themselves that they could never get back again. Then there would be no turning back.
Her eyes followed him as he walked over to the whiskey and poured himself another glass. “Clearly you have something to figure out for yourself” she replied with a whisper and rested her gaze on his face. “Getting out of Gaia might be a start” she added and drowned the rest of the golden amber liquid. “The gods know that this is where all happiness comes to die, and another shit show after another will drown even the best of people” wasn’t that the truth, everything that came to Gaia was swallowed and only the few came out on the other side. Somewhat still intact.