So this was unexpected - Boadicea (cw)

He listened to her whisper as he held her close and closed his eyes for a bit as a soft scoff left his lips, "I feel the same," he answered in a low tone. His name had such a power over him and at times he was scared at just the mention of it. But hearing Buffy moan it with pleasure, took the fright and anguish to turn it into something beautiful - Something he actually longed to hear again. He felt her hand on his cheek and made a satisfied sigh at the touch, it was incredible that she could make him feel this way just by touching his cheek, like he wouldnt be whole without her.
Mentioning that it was her first time probably wasnt the best idea, but he still felt a need to address it. After all, it was supposed to be meaningful and something she felt like she wouldnt regret, acting like it wasnt that just felt like it ruined the whole purpose. Her whisper made him chuckle right before he felt her sweet lips on his, running his hand down her back as he took in the intoxication. But he knew that he hadnt been true to his words in the whole sense, as he hadnt been all that gentle towards the end. He felt bad that he had hurt her, but her words pulled him out of his thoughts. He turned his head to hers and raised his eyebrow as she said she thought she wasnt going to experience this. He lifted his head onto his hand and looked at her, "Well, I am happy that I changed that for you. It's truly amazing if you find the right person to do it with," he then said, playing a bit with her hair with his free hand, his eyes turning melancholic as he thought of her being with someone else. He didnt want that, truly didnt, but he couldnt know if they were going to be like this forever. He sighed silently to himself and hoped that his dark thoughts were just thoughts.

Her tease made him frown as his face filled with surprise at her words. For a moment he wasnt sure if she had seen how he had been when he was with her, but then he realized that she probably knew that he had been with more than her. He grabbed her face and made her look him in the eyes as he shifted between her beautiful green ones, "You were better. Better than most demons," he then said as his serious expression softened up in a smile as he leaned his head to hers, kissing her lips gently. He pulled her close again and wrapped his arms around her. "This wasnt just about intercourse.. It was something more. Intense and loving the same. That cant be compared to meaningless partners from the past," he then said as he looked down at her and released an arm to place his hand on her cheek, stroking her skin with his thumb.
He took a moment to just look at her with a loving look in his eyes, as he studied her face. Not that he hadnt done it before, he just liked looking at her. "Are you tired?" he then asked, caressing her cheek with his thumb as he examined her eyes for an answer. He didnt feel that tired, but it wasnt that he couldnt sleep, if that was what she wanted.

Being placed so close to the demon still made her heart pound in a steady loud beat. She had never imagined that her full name could hold such a meaning. Him saying her name when he was in her was a sensation she actually hoped to experience again. His body was so beautiful to look at and she felt herself so content and happy in his arms. Mentioning this being her first time put her in a weird state of mind. Had she changed? She didn’t feel different, but everything else was so different. The last part of the act might have been more than she could have handled, but she didn’t regret it. She could still feel the tight grip around her thighs as he had pushed into her and he came. Her heart beating faster at the thought and she smiled slightly as he played with her hair. ”Was I right … for you?” she asked a bit hesitantly as he had mentioned that the right person could make it amazing. Buffy felt his hands on her cheek and she looked into his eyes. Better? She could hardly believe those words. His lips curling up in a smile, made her smile and she sighed as he kissed her. His strong arms around her made her safe again and she pulled herself closer, wrapping her arms around him. His words made sense, but she still found it weird. But was it really weird? She had felt the connection from their first meeting, and she didn’t know what to do about that feeling.

”I’m a bit tired, but I don’t want to sleep,” she whispered and looked at his chest, running her fingers along his tattoos once more. She felt like she could get lost in those black patterns, but it was like it calmed her down. ”I actually just want to be awake forever, looking at you,” she admitted with a chuckle before she returned her gaze to his face. She moved a bit, making a pained expression as she felt her aching body. She realized that he hadn’t been too gentle, but she wouldn’t hold it against him. He had made her feel so complete. ”Maybe sleep could be a good idea,” she murmured.

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