Time for changes

Outfit
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Maya's previous rebellious actions had Alison worry, and the fairy had tried - and Maya wasn't even angry at Alison, she was so grateful for Alison - there was just so many thoughts in the young thunderbird's head and the fairy was to busy to contain or calm them. Therefor, Alison had gotten that brillant idea along with Tidus, that she could move in with Tidus. Maya had already celebrated Christmas with Tidus, and still at time felt guilty for the fact that she earlier in December almost had been about to take her own life - to escape the misery she kept reliving. Her mental state wasn't much better, but she had come to the fact that perhaps it was just what she deserved, and her Hell was here on Earth. Maya didn't have much with her, Alison had enough magic to just let her stuff appear in the room Tidus had ready for Maya.
The young thunderbird walked closer to the house and took a deeper breath in. It wasn't like she thought it would be a permanent thing, and perhaps it was best if she wasn't alone - even if she felt alone most of the time. Maya knew Alison had told Tidus that there had been a thing in december, what it was that had happened and the event before it - she wasn't sure if Alison had told the demon the whole story or just simply wanted Maya to tell her story herself. She trusted Tidus, he was one of the people she always would trust - but she still couldn't shake the feeling that he had Christan and they wouldn't need her. He could go on without her. Most people could. She finally made it to the house and took a deeper breath in and walked up to the door. The young thunderbird walked inside and smiled seeing the demon. "So, are you really sure you are up for this. I mean, you don't have to let me stay," she tilted her head and looked at Tidus. Maya wanted him to be hundred procent sure on this, she never felt home - she had lost the complete sense of that feeling, but it was all she longed for.

It was her curse, to be shallowed by the darkness around her, never to let it have an ending or any type of peace - just chaos. It seemed for every time she found a moment of quite, it only created the next storm. Maya therefor was so sure that something would happen sooner or later, something bad. I know I really haven't been the last few months, she snorted a bit because she agreed - and there wasn't many filters left in her body to help removing the bluntness of her expression. Maya always let people take their space, have their time, even if she had to fall apart. No one ever saw her fall to pieces, lose control or almost being strangled in pain. No one seemed to care, but now - suddenly it was like nothing had happened, like she was just supposed to be okay - like nothing happened.
Maya took a deeper breath in and gave him a nod, she hadn't even had the time to really talk to him about what she had become. A creature of the storm. She had been scared enough as it was with Alison finding out, few of her friends - mostly because she was alone in the pain. Alone with having to break every single bone in her body every day for the rest of her life - only to pick every single feather to change back. As if she hadn't already been through enough pain, no wonder she had wanted to end things. End the pain. But she had made the choice to stay alive, and she just hoped it was worth it. "I'm ready," she replied with a firm smile.

He opened the door for her and she was greeted by the sun light, making a smile appear brighter on her face as she stepped in. The warm room made her body relax, telling her that everything was okay and there was no need to be tense. "I do," she started the sentence as the blue eyes looked around her, "I like it," she added before turning her gaze back to Tidus. Maya had never really been a decorator, even if she had a room in Alison's house - it was nothing she had set up, she had let Alison do it all. The closest thing to a personalized room she had was the one she shared at the academy with Calla. "I like the lighting in the room.. it would be nice for painting," she returned the blue eyes towards the window before walking over to look outside. She couldn't remember the last time she had such a big garden, she loved it through. Alison did have a garden, but it was smaller and didn't have a pool. Maya never had a garden with a pool before. Even if she was happy that Tidus wanted to take her in after the issues she had, she also knew Alison didn't mean it in any bad way letting her move out - however, it still stung somewhat being let go. Not that she wasn't used to that by now, but Alison was busy with work and her daughter - so Maya completely understood. "What are we gonna have for dinner tonight? Taco Tuesday right?"

Maya folded her lips slightly together, yes she did avoid the touchy subject that they both knew were up. For all Maya knew Alison had just mentioned that Tidus should be aware that Maya was very unstable. "So, to adresse the elephant in the room.. I still struggle with the whole being a thunderbird thing.. but one of the teachers at the academy has been very nice.. so it has helped a lot, so I finally feel like I can actually do it," she took a deeper breath in and looked at Tidus, it wasn't the biggest elephant to adresse, but it was the one that had caused her meltdowns - or at least helped the others along that night. "I don't expect anyone to understand how it feels, and you can say it will be okay - and maybe some day it will.. but right now, I have to transform into that shape every single day.. and there is no not doing that, and it is exhausting and painful. Sometimes I feel like I'm nothing but the embodiment of hurt." She confessed and breathed out slightly wrapping her arms around herself. It was like every time she was faced with a wave of struggle and got up, an even larger one just knocked her over again. "It has been eating me up inside Tidus. I wasn't even sure If I could take it anymore, but despite all that pain.. I'm still here, I just don't want to hurt anymore." Maya could feel her eyes burn from not letting her tears out and her lips shivered slightly, she had to remain her focus on not breaking her ability out of control. "But I am working on it."

Painting room, it all sounded almost too good to be true. Maya also knew this was a short time solution. She still had a room at the academy, but she really didn't want to see Levi's stupid face, and she had respect for Alison being busy. Maya just hoped that one day she would be in a state where she could actually live on her own without feeling like she was troubling anyone. Even if Tidus had allowed her to stay here, she still hadn't gotten a confirmation from his husband about staying here. "Mess is my specialty," she pointed out with a smaller chuckle and looked around.
"I think we should order out - just today, gives us a better time to just chill," she replied with a warmer smile. Maya would rather spend her first day in the house with him than having him out in the kitchen all evening.

Maya had never been fond of talking about her feelings, and she would rather keep her cards close than admit that she needed help. But she was beyond ressources to help herself anymore and had felt like she was drowning. He pulled her close, and Maya closed her arms around him. She wanted to joke it off, but she didn't she allowed herself to have a moment of silence and weakness. Maya was happy he didn't throw the 'everything will be okay' comment in her head, because had he, she would have given it right back to him. She was tired of people saying that. "If I become much more badass I will have to take Tatia's title from her," she mumbled a bit mostly as a joke. Tidus knew about Maya having spend time in the woods with a pack a few years back before she had been taken by Ramsay. It had been the most safe place at the time, and if Maya hadn't been so bloody restless she could have been safe there from Ramsay that time as well - but no, she had to go explore trying to dig out information about her biological family - and that had gotten here no where.

Maya followed him downstairs and took a deeper breath in. "Any pepsi max left?" She asked, before watching him grab an energy drink. Maya chuckled lightly, she could imagine the trybrid not being fond of the smell of energy drinks, because they did indeed smell. The only thing she drank that boosted her energy was coffee, she didn't even drink alcohol. Not liking how it made her mind race uncontrollably. "I won't but you might want to find something that does hide the smell, because trust me, for someone with a sensitive nose - they sure do stink," she teased with a warmer laughter. Maya sat down to greet Queen, "hello beautiful," she said in a more high pitch voice starting to play with the dog.