Why i can't stay away from you - Yuri

Eric lay in bed not being able to sleep or even relax, it had been one month precisely…one month since his life turned into a living hell and he fucking pushed Yuri out of his life…the things he said still ringing in his ears, he wanted to take them back…he wished he had never said them…but he needed Yuri to leave him…and hurting him was the only way…even if it killed Eric to the point where he wanted to kill himself, as he remembers Yuri’s tears and broken look when Eric told him he didn’t want him and that he didn’t want to be stuck with Yuri forever…he wanted to have Yuri by his side until the world ended and even after that…Fuck he wanted him until the universe and reality didn’t exist anymore, he turned in bed clinging to Yuri’s pillow. The only good thing was that well the story and video was still fucking everywhere and Eric had been suspended from work for two months because it didn’t look good  for his boss to have Eric working for him…and the media outside his home and police station made everybody’s job harder…so until it died down Eric was not allowed to work…but at least people had stopped writing hateful things about Yuri.

Eric closed his eyes in pain when the all too familiar pounding in his head started to appear, it had been almost daily for the past month…Yuri getting into trouble Eric coming to recuse him, Yuri trying to convince Eric they should be together Eric having to be strong and say no when all he wanted was to say yes and drag Yuri home and show him how much he wanted him…how much he wanted to marry him, have a life with him…but he had to say no…he could be selfish…he couldn’t destroy Yuri’s life more than he already had, so this time he just closed his eyes and ignored Yuri…he could do this to himself or Yuri anymore….it had to stop.

For a month he had tried to get Eric back. He had gotten himself in trouble countless times, just for Eric to come and help him. Even though he wasn't his guardian angel anymore, they were still connected in some way. If that didn't scream love, he didn't know what did.
Yuri looked like shit, even though he couldn't sleep, it was evident that he was tired. He hadn't eaten for so long, he had tried but he was so scared and when he tried he gave up at the end and just went home. What if he hurt someone? He couldn't live with himself if he did that.
His life was a mess, even though the gossip had died down, his life was hell. His mom and dad had cut all contact with him after they found out, making him all alone. He just wanted to be inside and do nothing. He hadn't trained that much either, he wasn't focused.
He had been to one tournament where he had been badly injured, when he got a guy's ice-blade to the head, having a hard time believing that it was a mistake. Many looked at him differently, he wasn't just the Olympic master anymore, he was the Olympic master that was gay.

He had decided to go out again, determined to change Eric's mind this time. He really needed him back in his life, it didn't make sense without him.
He had chosen Gaia where people were starting to get just a bit drunk, drunk enough to provoke.
He had already caught the eye of one, ending with him being pulled into an alley.
His heart sped up as he saw the guy in front of him. The typical drunk guy that couldn't get a hold of his life, reminding him of himself, except the drinking part.
I know you... Seen you on the news. Disgusting piece of shit he said through gritted teeth, before punching Yuri in the face, making him whimper as he saw the blood dripping from his broken nose.
But Eric would be here any second to save him, he always did.

After the sixth kick to the stomach, Yuri laying down whimpering, he knew Eric wasn't coming. He didn't know why he didn't? Maybe he just didn't care anymore? Maybe he wanted Yuri to get hurt. It hurt so bad, so bad that the kicks to his stomach were nothing compared.
He couldn't take it anymore, and before he could think he was up on his feet, twisting the guy's arm so a sickening crack could be hurt, before he sank his teeth into his neck, tasting the disgusting demon blood.
He forced himself away from him, as he saw the guy fall to the ground, blood covering both him and Yuri. He wasn't dead, he could hear his heartbeat, but he was hurt and it was Yuri's fault.
His heart clenched as tears started to flow... What had he done? This couldn't go on!


He had run all the way to Eric, didn't care for his car, he just needed to get to Eric. He didn't care if the older didn't want to see him if he didn't want him near his house, but Yuri needed this. Still covered in blood, he dragged himself to the doorstep, before knocking on the door, leaning on it a bit as he breathed out heavily.

The pounding in his head finally stopped, making Eric gasp out in pain and whimper, not being near Yuri when he needed him was painful beyond anything Eric could imagen, every bone in his body was screaming at him to get up and go to Yuri, to be near Yuri...but that's what had started this whole mess Eric not being able to stay away from Yuri.

His eyes flew open when he heard a pounding on the door, he got up ready to fight one the stupid reporters, because they wouldn't leave him alone, he opened it only stared in shock when he saw Yuri standing there covered in blood looking like hell. Eric looked around not wanting anyone to catch him and Yuri and take pictures, when he was sure they were alone he grabbed Yuri by the collar pulling him inside slamming the door behind him.
What the fuck Yuri! i told you last time you can't keep doing this! what the hell happened to you he shouted feeling worry overwhelm his senses, fuck what would he do if something had happened...guilt and a lot of self-hatred slowly moved through his body like a virus, this is what i was talking about! we are bad for one and other! The fucking lengths we are willing to go to....it fucking scary! You are willing to throw away your life for me! Too turn inti this! And you are fucking willing to let yourself get killed or beaten up just to get my attention!!! It’s not healthy! he shouted punching the wall above Yuri's head, the worst part is i love it!!! To have that kind of power over you!! to know how much you love me!! i fucking love it and i would love to see how far i can push you!! to fucking see what you would do!! And i don't care if that meant watching you burn the whole world to a crisp because then i would have you to myself! Fuck! he punched the wall again this time hearing his fingers break and feeling the blood drip down his hand. We are lethal...and fuck if i don't love it! i would literally do anything for you...if you had asked me to fall i would do it! And i am terrified what else i am willing to do! he cried before pressing his bloody hand to Yuri's lips

When he saw Eric it was as if he got whole new energy. Seeing the man he loved standing right in front of him meant everything to him.
Eric, please don't yell... You know I don't like it. he whimpered. Looking up at Eric, finally being this close to him again and inside the house, he felt like... maybe it would work this time, maybe he would get him back if he just promised anything he could give. He gasped as Eric punched the wall above him. He looked up at him surprised, was he that angry? Would he ever hurt Yuri?
He was right, their relationship was dangerous, they would do anything for each other. But what he couldn't understand was that Eric liked that he could make Yuri do anything, while Yuri felt so useless and... used.
He whined when he hit the wall again, Yuri could hear the bones breaking, smelling the blood dripping from his hand, making him so hungry, but he forced himself to talk to Eric first.
I can't do this anymore Eric... I nearly killed a guy. he said as he broke down crying. He couldn't take it anymore. Never in his life had he hurt anyone and never wanted to, but... now he had and he felt so awful, even though the guy had brutally beaten him up.
I have no one... my mom and dad don't want to talk to me... I'm either with you or I'm better off just dead. he sobbed. Thinking of his mom and dad, the day they said they wanted nothing to do with him, it pained him more than anything. He loved his parents so much. He had expected them not to understand, but never in his life had he expected them to cut him off.
He looked up at Eric with so much pain and sorrow.
I... I know I can't satisfy you, but please let me be with you... You can take anyone you want on the side, but please just let me love you he whispered. He didn't really mean it, it would break him completely, if Eric took someone else to satisfy him, still having Yuri. But what else could he do, if he wasn't enough for Eric's sexual pleasures?
He gasped as Eric pushed his hand to his lips, the blood giving off a sweet scent, making Yuri a bit dizzy since he was still so hungry. He licked some of the blood of his hand, moaning out at the taste that he had missed so much. He gently licked off all the blood, tears still streaming down his cheeks, even though his mom always told him never to cry when he ate.

Eric tried to calm down but his blood was boiling and he was so angry at himself and at Yuri but most of all at all those people who just wrote and said hateful shit about them. How am i supposed to react! i ruined your life and im okay with it! he sobbed the anger still simmering under the surface. The look of surprise and fear in Yuri's eyes made his stomach drop, he never wanted to hurt Yuri and the sound Yuri made when Eric's hand broke made him want to crumble to the floor. Eric looked up fuck Yuri are you hurt...are you...fuck! i wasn't there! he screamed punching the wall again making his hand bleed more and his whole arm throb in pain. As Yuri broke down crying, Eric almost collapsed, the pain Yuri was feeling was to much and it was all Eric's fault, DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE! he shouted grabbing Yuri tightly, Eric regretted it the second he touched his bare skin, he almost threw up, it was too overwhelming...the emotions and the thoughts running through the young vampires head...it made him dizzy. Eric couldn't breathe he felt to open and vulnerable like this...because all he was thinking and feeling in this moment was how much he loved Yuri and hated himself.

Yuri looked up at Eric with so much pain and sorrow, making Eric cry...fuck...Eric should never have said any of those things...i don't want anyone else! you are like a virus! you are a part of me, my, body ever cell and molecule...i can't get you out...the fact that i am still connected to you after losing my wings...Yuri that's not normal...it's not meant to happen...it's freak of nature...if that doesn't say something about us i don't know what does...we are stuck together forever...because i fucking think you are my soulmate! and i....fuck!!! he cried out not wanting to give in...not wanting Yuri to see how much Eric loved and needed him. Yuri gasped as Eric pushed his hand to his lips, the blood giving off a sweet scent, Eric knew it wasn't fair but he needed Yuri. So when Yuri licked some of the blood of his hand, moaning out at the taste it was all Eric needed to know. In one fast motion, Eric pulled Yuri's pants off letting his fingers circle his hole this is your last chance...because if you let me do this...no power on this fucking planet can keep me from you...so you better understand that this is forever...no leaving he growled pushing against Yuri's hole slowly pushing in.

He looked surprised at Eric. He was okay with ruining Yuri's life? It didn't seem like it though, he tried to make it okay with leaving and Yuri understood that, even though he might not agree with it.
He sighed as Eric asked if he was hurt, suddenly getting mad that he wasn't there, even though Yuri knew that Eric knew he was in danger. He could just have been there... I will heal... it's just... I hurt someone Eric, that's not me, I'm not like that. I don't wanna be like this Eric he whined. He had never wanted to be a vampire, but it was the only thing that could keep them together.
He gasped as Eric grabbed him, looking up at him with sad eyes. Eric hated himself and Yuri didn't like that.
Don't hate yourself he begged. He could feel the hatred to himself that Eric had, and Yuri didn't like it. Eric meant so much to him, and feeling what he was feeling towards himself, made him so sad.

He didn't want anyone else? Only Yuri. Soulmates... his heart began to flutter a bit. It felt good that Eric only wanted him, that he wasn't just someone he could replace. He knew it wasn't normal that they still were connected like this, he didn't know why they were connected, he knew very little of the supernatural world. But... you said... you said you didn't want to be with a boy like me... he said confused. All those words back then, he still remembered them so clearly, they still hurt like hell, Yuri couldn't understand them still, because it didn't seem like Eric at all... maybe? he really didn't mean them at all?
He gasped as his pants were suddenly pulled down and he felt Eric's finger as his hole, making him squirm and whine. That was something he had missed so terribly much. Having Eric fill him up, being connected to the one he loved like that.
Eric... he moaned in surprise, as his finger began to move in a circular motion around him.
A choked sound escaped him as Eric's words. Forever, they would be together forever again and they weren't going to break up this time. A new set of tears began to fall, this time out of relief and happiness.
I don't want anything else, but forever with you he whispered exhausted. He moaned in pleasure as Eric pushed his finger slowly in, making Yuri cling on to him like his life depended on it.

Eric cried really cried when he heard Yuri's words im so sorry....i just couldn't be around you...it hurts to much...and fuck... Yuri you were never meant to live in darkness, you are a ball of light and im not worth it...im so sorry i made you do this...i should never have let it get this serios...then you would still be human he said, the self-hatred only growing knowing what his love for Yuri had made him do, he was a monster...he had just come in and taken Yuri's life from him, stopping Yuri from ever falling in love with someone who deserved him and was good for him. Instead, he got stuck with Eric who was just to greedy and selfish to let you go...like a dragon...he was a fucking monster, he felt the biel rise up in his throat, he could taste the acid like taste. He looked at Yuri shaking his head violently don't say that...i am not a good guy...im fucking toxic...i ruined you...and i should beg you for forgiveness for making you think you had to become a vampire so we could be together...but i won't because im happy...because having power over you like this...i love it and i hate myself for it so much he whispered.

I LIED! I NEEDED YOU TO LEAVE! he shouted not knowing where all this anger was coming from but fuck he needed Yuri to understand him! i don't give to shits about sex! but i wanted you to leave, to not want anything to do with me! so i lied! i want you more than anything in this stupid worthless word! because i might not be yours but i know you are my soulmate because if not then i don't know what you are...because you are a part of me.

The sweet little gasp that left Yuri's lips when Eric pulled his pants down and let his finger trace Yuri's hole made Eric's knees buckle. Fuck that moan! the sound of his name on Yuri's lips! you better be sure because i will kill anyone that touches you...no turning back Yuri he growled pushing his finger inside Yuri, making Yuri cling on to him like his life depended on it. Eric didn't want to wait he quickly opened Yuri up making quick work of opening his pants and getting his cock free, he pulled his fingers out before slamming his cock into Yuri, fucking him up against the wall.

His lips quivered as he saw Eric cry. They couldn't change anything about it, done was done. Well at least he didn't think they could change anything about it. We can't change anything now... Just don't make it a decision I made in vain he said and gently wiped the tears away. He loved Eric so much, that was why he did it in the first place, he didn't regret doing it for Eric's sake at all, he just didn't like the hunger that came with it.
He sobbed silently as Eric's hatred to himself only became stronger, as he scolded himself. Yuri hugged himself into him tightly, shaking his head.
You always had this power over me... I don't know why, but ever since that day in the cell, I felt secure with you, so I just gave everything I had to you he mumbled against his chest. Eric was his guardian angel, he always trusted him and gave him everything. He was so naive, but he didn't care, he had so much love to this man only.

How can you lie, when I can't! Those words ruined my life. I thought... I was just some common whore to you when you said those words.! he yelled back at him with the same anger. He needed to know how much he hurt him, he needed to know to never ever do that again. If you want me, don't push me away. he whispered the anger leaving him. He could never be angry at Eric for too long, Yuri wasn't an angry person at all.

His word made Yuri shiver. He knew he was serious and maybe it should scare him, but all it did was turn him on and made him feel even more secure. I'm sure, please he said as he gently kissed Eric.
Small sounds escaped him as he pleaded after more when Eric began taking off his pants. He knew what he was going to get and he just couldn't wait for him to be inside of him, filling that void that he so desperately needed.
He screamed out in pleasure as Eric slammed into him, not worrying about if someone outside heard them. He was a moaning mess against him, as he was fucked against the wall.
Aaah! More he whined out as he gasped heavily.

You could never be a common whore! i know what i said was unforgivable! and i fucking hate myself for ever saying it! but i thought if i hurt you...you would leave and not want to see me anymore he yelled back at Yuri, not in the mood for a screaming contest right now, but knowing they both had a lot of shit they needed to sort out before they could even get close to fixing there relationship. I won't push you away...i promise he muttered quietly.

As much as he wanted to sweet and gentle with Yuri that's not what either of them needed right now, so when Eric felt Yuri gently kiss him it was like a switch inside him had been turned on. He didn't care if it hurt of whatever right now he just needed to be inside Yuri before it was to late. Eric slammed into Yuri loving his cute little gasp for more. He slid out and slammed back in, hard, rocking Yuri's whole body so hard his eyes rolled back in pleasure, Eric immediately quickened the pace, feeling his leg muscles strain as he kept slamming his hips back and forth in that tight heat.

He took ahold of Yuri's hair pulling it hard as he fucked him into the wall making the painting fall down and break, but Eric didn't care, bared his throat fucking Yuri harder warping his fingers around the young boy's cock, bite me and don't fucking stop until i cum he growled giving Yuri's sweet spot a hard slam.

Yuri just hummed as Eric said he wouldn't leave him. Finally, he had his boyfriend back. But somehow it didn't feel right, they had so much to work out between them, that Yuri didn't know what to do or how to feel. Did they love each other still, like before? He knew he himself still loved Eric, he knew his own thoughts on it, but he didn't know Eric thoughts.
They had a lot to talk about, a lot to sort out, but as long as Eric would be by his side, he knew it was going to be okay.

Yuri leaned against Eric as he continued slamming into him so hard that it pained Yuri, just as much as it gave him pleasure. It felt fantastic, he had missed it so terribly much. He shivered against Eric's body as the pace was sped up and the pleasure overwhelmed him. He whimpered and moaned, scratching at Eric's back, panting as he begged Eric not to stop.

He gasped as Eric pulled his hair hard, he looked into Eric's lust filled eyes. He couldn't describe the feeling, but it felt good to be used like that. Was this what was called makeup sex, after an argument? It felt great, all their lust and anger taken out on each other, but still with so much love.
He looked at the painting that fell, but like Eric, he didn't care much.
He gulped as Eric bared his throat, telling him to bite him. He really didn't know if it was the time, he was still covered in blood and he didn't know if he could control himself, but when Eric commanded him to do it with a growl, he didn't hesitate as he bit him with a strained moan and drank until the older came in him and Yuri came with him.
I love you he moaned out in exhaustion.

Yuri leaned against Eric as he continued slamming into him so hard that it pained Yuri, but Eric neede it fuck he needed them to feel pain and pleasure, so when Yuri whimpered and moaned, scratching at Eric's back, panting as he begged Eric not to stop. Eric wasn't sure he could, it was all to much for him, all these emotions overwhelming him making him feel crazy, he didn't know if he could ever stop loving Yuri, even if he died he would always love him.

Eric moaned pulling his hair harder, he felt consumed and wrung out, his whole world was right in front of him and all he wanted to do was destroy it so he could put it back together, the possessiveness and shimmering darkness inside him slowly made it's way to the surface terrifying him beyond anything, he wanted to own and posses Yuri in ways he couldn't describe. So when Yuri didn't hesitate in following Eric's order and bit him, it took all Eric had not to cum in that second, Yuri drank until Eric came with a scream loving the feeling of emptying himself inside his boyfriend. He looked into Yuri's eyes crying i love you more he said opening his mind and heart to Yuri giving him full access to all Eric's feelings hoping to get the message across in how much he loved the boy in his arms

//out <3