Even for me this is to much

DATE 29.01.21
PLACE Gaia museum, rented out for the gala/conference
TIME around 8 pm
WEATHER Cold, clear sky and you can se the moon and the stars


What if she needs me, or she came back home?
This was the seventh time that Eden had been trying to talk herself out of the Gala. It had been over a month now, a month where they did not know where their youngest daughter was. It had been one of the most agonising periods of Eden’s time, and even though the family did not know of how long Eden had been walking this earth. The thought of her daughter out there somewhere, not knowing how or maybe did not want to come home? It was torture for the motherly heart. Then there had been the fact that Kemuel had broken into the archives, trying to copy classified documents because he wanted his father to come home. Their daughter Tien battling with demons she did not want to share, even with her, and looking herself away in Zadkiel’s room. What had become of that perfect family? Laila was almost at this point the most holding point that Eden had left, and she was old enough to live her own life without her parent’s interference.

Then there was the other fact, of her husband not being here. She had called him from home, three hours before the gala was about to start. Only to first get his voicemail, and after that his stressed voice saying he would only make it to the gala start, and she should head off without him. Already then, a solid ice feeling in her gut had started to form and she felt like everything was just going wrong one way or another.
A waiter walked past her with flutes of champagne, and she quickly grabbed one and started drowning it. Standing there in her perfect makeup, her wonderful white dress and all she could think about was that she needed to get home – be anywhere but here. And this was to celebrate her, that she had a breakthrough with the other scientist, in genetic engineering. And of course to get more founding for the hospital, one should never forget that.
Finally she saw a face that was more than welcome and almost stormed over to her "I swear, this is going to be the end of me, if one more-" – “Ah Eden there you are! Here meet Preston Glumgold he has a big company just outside of Birmingham and is very intrigued with your newest discovery” a smile and a polite nod came from the angel before her arms snaked into Cecilia’s “Of course, and it will be my pleasure to tell you all about it, but I’ll have to go power my nose and I’m stealing Cecilia with me – women and bathrooms and all that” her Israeli, French, Italian accent was thick as she nodded her head and pulled her friend a co-worker with her. “I’m slowly loosing my mind Cecilia” Eden huffed, and drowned the rest of the champagne only to exchange it with another.

It was a breath of calm when they came to a place that was more secluded, the buzzing crowed was like bees in the summer trying to find nectar. But in this gathering, it was vultures trying to feed themselves with ego and money. As Cecilia talked to her, breathe - yes, a breath that would be a good start. Slowly Eden took a deep breath in through her nose and out, true it was her night she could just go, couldn’t she? But then there was the fact that Cael had suppose to meet her twenty minutes ago, and last she checked there had been no messages from him.
She sighed and gave her younger co-worker a warm smile, even though that Eden had stress weighing her down, to her almost not being able to sleep in the night. Sitting in the Livingroom watching the porchlights hoping they would turn on and let her know her daughter was home again. All the messages she had been sending, letting her now that whatever had happened, she loved her, and she should come home soon.
So, the thought of knowing if she was alright or not, that was maybe not the worst idea. Eden slowly nodded when Cecilia asked; “I know it’s a lot to ask of you” she said, knowing very well that Cecilia had a lot of other stuff going on in her life. Not knowing what, but it did not take a genius to she that the younger woman had a lot of pressure on her. “But if you can, that would help me a great deal, I just – its like my whole family is falling apart” she said with a sad smile, that picture perfect family was nothing more; a picture on her nightstand with all of them smiling. And one by one they had just started to fall into darkness, had she failed as a mother?

Friends, yes, she still had them. Even though most of the people that she had seen as friends she had so easily left behind, to start a new life. Maybe things would had been better, did she not hide the truth of who she really was, and why she had come this far I live. Like a person just could be a specialist in so many fields with only forty-five or so years behind then? Eden looked down towards the light translucent drink that floated around in the crystal glass, had she just been drinking two of them already? Suddenly she realized what she had been up to, and quickly put the half drunken drink away, and instead made sure that Cecilia did not need help, powers like this tended to go wrong, if on was not careful.

When Cecilia finally came back, it was like a heavy load lifted from her shoulders. It hurt to know that her daughter was out there, not comfortable with coming home because she was scared. But not because of that, but because that meant she had failed. Failed to let her daughter know, that no matter what happened, or what she had done her mother would always be there – with open arms.

“Thank you – that, really helped” Eden softly said, and gave Ce’s overarm a little squeeze “Not that it doesn’t make me want to run after her this second, but first, I cant really go before my husband gets here, and I can’t reach him on his phone” she said with a sigh and let two fingers pinch the bridge of her nose, as if a headache were about to form.

The eyes quickly found Cecilia’s when she heard what she had to say, the worst thing for the Angle was that she was right. Of course, he was not coming because when it came down to it work was more important. Always getting called back to work, always had an excuse to take work back home. Even though she had been so worried, because last time Cael almost died in duty because of this case, and after the threat of Asmodeaus actually taking it out on the family, Cael hadn’t slowed down. Maybe it were time to finally confront him with it, when the time was right of course.

“Never be sorry for saying what you feel is true” Eden said and show a small smile, even though the truth hurt. “And no, but it’ll take my minds of things for a while, and Tien is doing okay Zadkiel is taking care of her, and if Seraphina needs time to gather her courage, I’ll wait for her” she said, and gave Cecilia a small squeeze “But thank you”


She nodded slowly and snaked her arm around Cecilia’s again “Yes, let’s do it”


“Lastly thank you so much to be here today, it’s a great discovery and we hope that we’ll be able to continue our great work with Gaia hospital and our donors” as fake smile was plastered all over her face, as she had seen the crowd. Her husband was not insight, didn’t make it seemed, and for the first time, in over hundreds of years she felt the emotion of anger slowly sneaking its way into her heart.

Eden took a deep breath through her nose and nodded, yes that would be the best thing, just to get out of there. The speech had helped, because it was something she loved and cared about. But as soon as she walked down from the podium the feelings came back, just stronger than before.
“Yes, I’ll say goodbye now are you okay getting home?” even when Eden had to worry about others, didn’t mean she had not room to care for her friend and co-worker. And even though that Cecilia hadn’t told her very much of everything, she knew that something was up with her.

Her phone rang, and she quickly looked down, and saw Zadkiels name, she then locked over to Cecilia – “I’m sorry to leave you like this, but thank you for everything to night” she grabbed the smaller woman and gave her a hug before she quickly walked out of the room. “Yes?” a sigh of relief blossomed in her heart, when it was just to ask if there was any milk left “There should be in the fridge second row to the left” she laughed when she her Tien in the background telling him that mom always knew best. “Alright, it shouldn’t be long before I’m home – yes of course I’m coming home?” she thought that was a weird question, before she looked up and saw Cael walking towards her “Have to go honey, talk to you later” her arms crossed over her chest with the phone and prize in her hand.
“You are official very late –” see breathed, and tried to keep her anger under control.

Cael vidste han havde fucked virkelig meget op! Dette var noget af det vigtigste for Eden i øjeblikket og han havde været på vej der til som han var kaldt tilbage på arbejdet fordi de havde fundet liget af 3 drenge mere, han havde spurgte om der for helvede ikke var en anden der kunne tage sig af det, men nej var der ikke. Derfor havde han været nødt til at vende runde for at køre tilbage til arbejdet, iføre sig sin skudsikrevest og skilt igen, han havde ikke engang nået at klæde om til det pæne nye tøj, han havde købt netop til denne aften.

Dog som han formåede at kunne slippe fra arbejdet, havde han løbet ned i omklædningen og klædt om til det pæne tøj han havde købt samtidig med at han havde brugt tid på at sætte håret som han vidste Eden elskede når han gjorde og ikke bare på den normale hverdags måde inden han tog sin dyreste deo og parfume på og løb op til bilen for at køre afsted. Cael kendte en af Eden’s medarbejder der var med på aftenen, som var hurtig til at sørge for at han kunne følge oplægget online fra sin computer han havde i bilen. Den stod på passagersædet og lyden kørte over anlægget i bilen, mens hans kamera i bilen optog det så han kunne vise Eden det hvis han ikke troede på hende.

Bilen blev smidt ind på den først og bedste plads han kunne finde tættest på, som han fik øje på hans elskede kone, man kunne tydeligt se at han var vant til at parkere hurtigt og med udrykning på, for han fik bilen perfekt ind, mens den holde snore lige. Cael kom ud af bilen og rettede på tøjet og kort brugte sidespejlet for at se om håret sad ordentligt. I bagage rummet på bilen, var der pakket tøj til en weekend til dem begge, han havde fundet alt det tøj som var han regnede med at Eden ville gå med når de skulle afsted på en lille mini weekend bare de tog.

Cael så på Eden som hun stod der så smuk i hendes kjole, han mærkede kærligheden vokse i ham og mærkede at han virkelig elskede hende selvom de havde store børn og været sammen så længe og måske havde en heeel del udfordringer i forholdet og hjemmet. Det var gået op for Cael, derfor havde han også planlagt denne weekend uden arbejdsmobil og det hele. ” Hey Honey, i’m really sorry dear, There is nothing that can be a good enough explanation for me coming so much too late.” sagde han og så på hende og var virkelig oprigtig ked af det. ”But you did it so well, I mean you handled it so perfect, I saw it all from my computer in the car. I called one of your colleague, and he helped me to see it all. “ sagde han og lagde blidt sine hænder på hendes arme og kyssede hende på panden. ” You look so gorgeous Honey” sagde han og så på hende, han prøvede ikke at spille overdrevet helt for at få hende til at blive glad, men han var oprigtig og det kunne ses på ham samtidig med at han var virkelig ked af at være kommet så meget forsent. "Biggest congratulations from the deepst of my heart, to the woman I love mpre than anything on this earth." sagde han og så på hende med store kærlige øjne.

Hun var så træt og vidste ikke hvilken fod hun skulle stå på, vred og såret var vel et godt sted og starte. Hun stod blot og betragtede ham, da hans varme læber ramte hendes pande og hun lukkede kort øjnene, tog en dyb indånding igennem næsen. Det ville ikke hjælpe, der var ingen grund til at blive sur lige nu, de kunne tage det senere. ”Yeah? Thanks” sagde hun med en blid stemme, men vidste ikke rigtig nogen grund til at de skulle fortsætte samtalen, hvilket hun vidste ikke var fair, da han prøvede det vidste hun. Men der var bare mere på hendes tallerken end hun kunne klare, og hun havde mest af alt bare lyst til at lade ham få det. Skælde ham ud, skrige af ham det ikke kunne passe han blev ved med at gøre det mod dem. Det var ikke kun mod hende, men mod hans familie! Hun var bare træt, sur og ville hjem så hun kunne sikre sig at alt var som det skulle være.
”Can we just get home? I’m so tired, and not in the mood right now Cael” svarede hun så venligt hun kunne, men hørte også godt at det kom ud spydigere end hun havde regnet med. Som hun gik hen mod bilen hendes høje hæle der klinkede mod det kølige fortov, hjem til Zadkiel og Tien, hjem og høre om Seraphina havde ringet eller, et eller andet. Hun var bare, så træt.

Eden was hurt, upset, and angry! Cael knew that - he knew it very well! He kind of wish he could say something right now that could make everything better, but he knew he couldn't. Therefore, he sincerely hoped that his surprise would make her just a little happy and they could both have a chat together, alone, without children and work. He had sensed something was wrong and that his family was driving as it did right now indicated that he was missing and that his work took up too much of his time. Cael wanted to make it up to me, he just wanted to talk to Eden about it alone with no children nearby, and then he wanted to show her how much he still loved her.

Cael was quick to take off her jacket to put it around her shoulders , "No darling, we're not going home. You and I are going on a little weekend break, I've planned everything. Zadkiel takes care of his siblings and I've made sure the house is kept a little extra safety to ensure that nothing happens to our wonderful children." He said and came over to her. He stood in front of her as she stood by her car, and placed the hand where his wedding ring was on her hand where the wedding ring was sitting. "Eden I love you, and we need some time together you and I. " he said and so gently lovingly on her. "I have our luggage in my car, we need to catch a plane" He said and sent her a loving smile, he briefly wondered if he should carry her over to the car just like on their wedding night, but maybe it was just walking a tooth too far.

She looked at him, first with chock in her eyes as he said that they were not going home. What did he mean by that? And then a brief smile began to grow, had he found Sera? Was that why he was so late, he had found her, and they were going to get their baby daughter back.
But the next words that came out of his mouth took her breath away, and not in good way, with disbelieve written all over her face she took a deep breath in. This was a joke, it had, it must had been a joke? Going away, for a weekend!? Yes they needed time together, away from all of this it was just not the time, their daughter was missing! “What, what are you – How on earth – our wonderful children!? We are missing one of them! Seraphina is gone has been for over a month now! Do you have any idea what is going on these days!?” she was so angry that tears started forming in her eyes, and she wanted nothing more to just scream.
“I’m not doing this here, take me home, now!” she demanded and open the car door, and sat down on the seat. Tears streaming down her face, she was so hurt, so angry and she did not know how she could keep her head cool in this situation. For the first time in ages, she wanted nothing more to go back to heaven. But for the time being their home had to be enough, and now they were going to take that talk she had postponed for so long.

Cael did not doubt that Eden misunderstood him and thought he was late because he had found their daughter. He wanted that to be the reason, but it wasn't. Cael was frustrated and upset that his daughter was gone, he did what he could to find her, but it wasn't meant. He had set the big start to finding her, he had been out in the woods walking with dogs to find his daughter. Cael had many sleepless nights because he was wondering where she was and if anything had happened to her.

Her disappointment in her eyes was great and that she was not entirely satisfied with the words he came up with, there was nothing hidden. He closed his eyes briefly and turned his head to the ground to try to stay calm inside. " Yes, I know, I'm looking for her. Got more people on to try to find her. I'm doing what I can" He said as he turned his eyes to her, her tear hit him and helped to make his own eyes wet. He wasn't the type to cry in front of others if he could be free, but it was his daughter that was about and he loved her while he feared what had happened to her.

Somewhere he didn't know exactly how he was going to handle this in a p square it wasn't straightforward very cool. Cael took the chance and stood up to her and let herself squat in the door, "Eden, I just want to get our family back together, the perfect family we had before. What we had together with you me, and our children. I wanted to take you on this trip so that we could talk and talk about things and find solutions together. I already have some of the solutions to my absence at home, but I can't do this alone Eden. " He said and felt how the first tear was fresh down his cheek, it was many years since he had cried in front of Eden or shown his feelings like that. "I'd like our family back. I'd like to reassemble our puzzle game, get our family together, Eden. " he said and while he looked at her and tried to catch her eye, there was no doubt that he meant it.

He forced her hand, as he instead of just driving stopped her from closing the door and sat down in front of her, asking her for help, the perfect family? That just made her cry even more.
Through the anger and the hopelessness that was filling her always loving heart, she pushed herself to talk; “that perfect family doesn’t exist anymore Cael, it fell apart years ago” she said and slowly shook her head “And no, you can’t do it alone, what do you think I’ve been trying since first time Asmodeus was back, roaming this earth?” she sobbed and turned her head away from him. This wasn’t an issue of her not loving her husband, because she did, why else would it hurt so much right now? Like her heart was being torn in a million pieces, as she just starred into the darkness that was only lighted up by the streetlights. And of course, from the windows into the hall where people were still going – celebrating her discovery.

“I really don’t want to talk about this here Cael, please drive home” She begged, and curled her cold fingers together in her lap. Maybe the fought of their broken family, and her feeling like it was all her fault, was the fact that she didn’t know what to do anymore. She had failed, failed to be the perfect wife, failed in being the perfect mom – failed in having the perfect family. Because you should never strive for something that was impossible and having the perfect life was not possible.

It hurts Cael! Seeing his wife so devastated and sad, didn't hold back the tears. Her tears were rolling down her cheeks and her words only made him cry even more. " It's my fault, the one who failed! Not you or anyone else." he said and looked at her, he looked down at his knees and bit his lower lip. "I've been blind, blind to reality and only focused on working and catching Asmodeus because I'm afraid he's taking you all away from me" He said and saw how she looked away from him. If there was something that hurt and felt like being stabbed in the chest with a big blunt knife, it was seeing his wife like that.

"Yes, let's go home" he said and put his hand on her cold hands, he wouldn't force her to take with him on that weekend trip if she didn't want to. "I love you, Eden I hope you know" he quietly straightened up to pull off his jacket and put it over her in the hope that she could get the heat faster when the car was turned on. Cael gently closed the door before he sat down on the other side to start the car so they could get home.

"It is my job to reassemble the pieces, if possible. But we need to talk without the children Eden. They should not get involved in this until we have talked together, promise me. They have gone through enough and then we're going to have our daughter home, I'm not going to go to sleep or anything else until I can bring our daughter into your embrace Eden" he said and looked at her before he turned on the car and started backing off so they could get home. The other car could always be picked up, he had to get Zadkiel to pick it up.