I can't do this all by myself

Emne: I can't do this all by myself Tors Mar 12, 2020 7:56 pm

Et møde i storsalen for flokkens medlemmer. Det var en af de ting, som Margo havde lykkedes med at få slået igennem. Efter Lorenzo var taget tilbage til Bath for at holde vampyrerne der på afstand. Så havde Margo fået plads i Gaia, det var nyt at være så langt væk fra dem i flokken som boede i Bath. På den anden side slap hun fra at blive rykket i af sin mor konstant. Folk her omkring, vidste at hun var Lorenzos mage. De ønskede ikke at udfordre hverken ham eller hende - ikke lige nu i hvert fald. Lorenzo havde bedt hende og Shin om at stå sammen. Siden Shin var lederen af et af de hunting teams som Lorenzo havde. Dog var det ikke meget hun havde set til Shin på det seneste, og hun frygtede halvt at han ville vende flokken ryggen. Hvis der var en ting der ikke var tolereret i flokken var det at smutte. Det var set som et tegn på svaghed, og en hver af flokkens medlemmer ville have tilladelse til at tage sigte for det mærke han ville bære på sin ryg. Det var ikke et liv hun ønskede for ham.

Så da hun så ham træde ind i lokalet, var der er tung sten som løftede sig fra hjertet. Hun løftede stille på et bryn af ham, heldigvis var de andre ikke mødt op endnu. Margo ville være sikker på, at hun var på samme side som Shin i dette. "I was about to think you wouldn't show up," indrømmede hun og sank en klump. hun mærkede hjertet sprang en takt over, men prøvede ikke at gøre et større nummer ud af det. Det var første gang længe, at hun ikke var overvåget af Lorenzo. Måske hun endelig havde en mulighed for at mærke friheden bare lidt igen.

Emne: Sv: I can't do this all by myself Tors Mar 12, 2020 9:07 pm

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Shin, havde overvejet op til flere gange at trække sig eller måske forsvinde, blive udsendt igen kunne dække hans spor og så kunne, han være i USA, bagefter uden og ha packens store ansvar og at han nok ikke kunne løbe fra det, siden han var en del af det men Margo tænken om hende holde ham tilbage, men det var os en af grundene til de ikke kunne gøre det store ved det. Som han fik rejste sig op fra sengen studeret han en masse ting rundt omkring sig selv, han burde ikke og forholde sig sådan her, men han måtte nok dukke op det, havde været lang tid siden han, havde været en del af packens møde. Men nu måtte han se han, bevægede sig derfor hen til sit skab greb hans trøje og jakke inden han smed det over sig og begynde og bevæge sig ned til Storsalen. Han, havde fået et enkelt værelse men det var ikke fordi han brugte det, han forholde sig helst væk fra skolen når han ikke studeret.

Som han bevægede sig ned, vidste han ikke helt, hvad dette ville være om, men dette måtte han høre hende om, Margo kunne sagtens gi en kort forklaring uden og ligge ekstra i det. Han kunne mærke hvordan hans hjerte slog, havde de fundet ud af ham og Margos affair, mens hun var sammen med Lorenzo eller var det derfor hun samlet det op for at be ham om at forlade packen. Alle disse tænker fløj gennem hans hoved, men han måtte bare se det hele an.

Da han kom ind og kun så hende fra packen som hun bevægede sig op til ham og talte til ham, sprang hans hjerte et takt over, hvorefter han kløet sig bag øret, ”yeah would not miss it.” Kom det ganske enkelt fra ham som han fulgte med hende, han kunne stadig huske de nætter de, havde brugt sammen da Lorenzo var væk. ”So what is this, anyway Margo ?” Mens de gik lod han hans øjne glide ned over hende, hun så stadig smuk, det var der ingen tvivl om i hans hoved.

Emne: Sv: I can't do this all by myself Søn Mar 15, 2020 5:59 pm

Hun følte at hun kunne ånde igen. Det var svært altid at vide, hvem man kunne stole på. Margo var dog på en anden side af det princip, for hende var det med aat finde ud af, hvem der stolede på hende når hendes evne ikke bar effekt over dem. Et varmere smil strøg henover hendes læber, som han åbnede munden først. Det var rart nok at vide, at de var sammen om det. "Well, not much honestly," indrømmede hun og tog en dyb indånding ind. "I just wanted to make sure we were on the same page," tilføjede hun og lænede sig en smule op ad bordet bagved sig, hvorefter hun stille placerede sine hænder mod bordpladen. "Now that Lorenzo is back in Bath. I have my usual tasks as a luna for the pack, but you and I got a beta space fill out. Together," fortalte hun så og foldede kort læberne sammen men uden at tage øjnene fra ham. Hun havde ikke glemt deres tid sammen, det var en af de få minder hun ejede, hvor hun bare havde været fri. Margo var så indespærret sammen med Lorenzo, men sammen med Shin havde hun været fri. "I hoped we could figure it out. I really need you in this."

Emne: Sv: I can't do this all by myself Man Mar 16, 2020 12:10 pm

Som Margo fortalte ham om grunden til han var har rynket han kort på hans øjenbryn, dette var nyt. At han skulle hjælpe hende med at finde en beta, var ikke en ting han normalt gjorde så meget i. Han bed sig selv kort i hans underlæbe, mens han studeret hende som hun stod der, som en stærk kvinde. En af grunden til han, havde været sammen med hende var at, hun forstod ham på så mange måder, som andre ikke kunne forstille sig ikke engang hans venner eller kæreste før, havde haft den påvirkning på ham.

Han så derefter på Margo inden han talte, ”seems a bit odd, that he would want me to help finding a beta, I aint really the best person when it comes to that, and it seems more like a punishment.” Lød det fra Shin, hvorefter han så på Margo.

“you got any in mind for the post?” Lød det generelt nysgerrig fra Shin, hvorefter han sendte Margo et skævt smil. Han var dog glad for at være ved hende nu, en del af ham håbet Lorenzo ikke ville komme tilbage så ham og Margo, måske kunne bygge noget, men på den anden side ønsket han ikke at Lorenzo ville dø, eller forsvinde for den sags skyld. Han gik derefter hen til hende og som hun stod op a bordet, valgte han og stå op ad væggen.

”I mean do i have choice, to not be a part of this.” Lød det ganske kækt fra ham, han joket helt sikkert ingen tvivl om det. Som han stod der, så han hende for første gang som en Luna og en smukkere kvinde, end han nogensinde. ”What about, James right, was that what he was called maybe make him a beta, he seems to be in control and loyal.” Kom det ganske enkelt fra Shin som han ventet på hendes reaction til personen.

Emne: Sv: I can't do this all by myself Søn Mar 22, 2020 9:35 pm

"I actually was thinking about taking it," indrømmede hun og sank nervøst en klump. Margo gjorde allerede meget for flokken, men hun havde ofte mere ansvar end en Luna faktisk burde have. Hun følte hun havde fortjent den, men det var ikke noget hun direkte turde at sige til Lorenzo, ikke før andre havde bekræftet hende i teorien i hvert fald. "But you know me, so it would be a help," Margo tog en nervøs indånding og slikkede sig let om læberne. Margo fik langtfra bekræftigelse i de ting hun fortog sig. Alt hun lavede blev betragtet som en selvfølge, og det var drænende, for ikke at nævne tappende på selvværdet ind imellem.

Margo fulgte ham med øjnene og sank en klump af hans lille joke. "Very funny," mumlede hun med en hentydning af et lille smil. "I don¨t know about James. He is always there, but honestly. I just think he likes the attention," indrømmede hun og kløede sig let i nakken. "But I guess I might be stupid to think, I could hold that spot," sukkede hun og så lidt ned. Det var måske klogt nok at holde hende fra den plads, i hvert fald for Lorenzo. Margo var en stærk brik i flokken, og havde flere medlemmer på sin side end Lorenzo havde som alfa - hun ville næsten have muligheden for at vippe alfaen ned og give hende for meget magt var en farlig ting - men kunne også være den rigtige ting.

Sidst rettet af Shin Lør Mar 28, 2020 7:43 pm, rettet 1 gang

Da Margo nævnte at hun selv, havde overvejet det stoppet han med hans små jokes, for at være ærlig, havde han troede at hun ikke var seriøs om det og han, havde ikke forventet hun ville forslog sig selv. ”I mean, you would work great as a beta no doubt about it, but, what would you do, are you planing on taking control from Lorenzo?”

Kom det ganske chokeret fra Shin, hvorefter han bed sig svagt i underlæben, han så derfor sig omkring for at være sikker på ingen, havde over høre ham måske var han en smule paranoid på nogen punkter. Hans øjne mødte Margo da hun talte til ham, og pointeret det omkring deres person James, da hun så talte om sig selv og slog sig selv ned, bed han sig svagt i hans underlæbe. ”No, i mean ts not unheard a person, would give up their place as a Luna for taking a beta role.

” Lød det fra Shin hvorefter, han bed sig selv i hans læber igen, ”i mean power is a dangerous thing, but do you think you can handle it, and why do you wane do it ?” Kom det Ganske enkelt men os nysgerrig fra Shin af, som han bevægede sig tætte på hende, ”but if this is what, you want i wil stay with you.” Lød det fra Shin, inden hans læber mødte hendes, i et enkelt kys det var dog væk igen hurtigt, han måtte være forsigtig stadig, med deres relation, man kunne sige det kunne dræbe ham, selv hvis hun fik overtaget, packen. "I will back your claim, if thats what you want." Lød det åndeløst fra Shin.

Emne: Sv: I can't do this all by myself Lør Mar 28, 2020 1:48 pm

Det ville være dum at forsøge at tage kontrol for Lorenzo, det ville kræve han overgav sig eller afgik ved døden. At dræbe folk uden det var sidste vej var ikke just Margos natur. Hun ønskede ingen ondt, men hun ønskede at skabe fairness for sin flok. De traditioner flokken havde nu var gammeldags og byggede på dominans. En dominans som hun ikke kunne se på blomstre mere, men hun kunne ikke bare tage magten fra Lorenzo. Hvis han først følte hun var en trussel, ville han ikke tøve med at sætte hende ud af spillet. Det vidste de begge to, så hun undlod at svare det spørgsmålet lige nu. "You have seen what is like in our pack. Fearing the alpha is a sign of respect, there is no honor in using power to get our way," pointerede hun og lagde sine arme overkors. "Here we fight to live and fight to be respected by our fellow members. If you show any signs of weakness, your dead. Is that really the life that we want?" Spurgte Margo og sank en klump. Hun var ligeglad med magt, hvad der betød noget for hende var flokken og hvordan alle blev behandlet. Margos mor havde altid sagt, at Margo ikke havde et hjerte som hørte til i en flok som denne. Hun var alt for barmhjertig.Det var altid hende der bad Lorenzo om at give andre en chance til, og til hendes fordel havde hun evnerne til at få ham til det.

Shin trådte nærmere imod hende, og nævnte han var ved hendes side - lige meget hvad hun valgte at gøre. Sagen var den, kunne hun acceptere konsekvenserne ved at tage chancen? Var det virkelig det værd? Han overraskede hende ved at placere sine læber imod hendes, enkelt og hurtigt overstået. De hasselnødsfarvede øjne lå imod Shins mørke og hun tog en dyb indånding ind. "Thank you," svarede hun med en lav stemme som hun åndede ud. Så lod hun sine hænder gribe fat omkring hans ansigt, og lod endnu engang sine læber placere sig mere lidenskabeligt imod hans.

Emne: Sv: I can't do this all by myself Søn Mar 29, 2020 9:28 am

Som hun fortalte ham omkring, hvorfor hun ville gøre det osv, begynde han med og kunne se det på hendes punkt. Hans øjne mødte hendes som han, bevægede sig nærmer de var stadig alene, men hvem ville sige det videre, packen var ikke lige frem kendt for at stikke hinanden, men så igen dette var anderledes, hans øjne mødte hendes igen da han træk sig væk.
”I am at your side my queen,” lød det åndeløst fra Shin af som hans, øjne mødte hendes igen da hun greb fat om hans hoved og presse hendes læber gengældende mod han, for at være ærlig, havde han savnet dette. Hans læber gengælder kyset som hans øjne var lukket og bare nydt det.

Han åbnet derefter øjne da de træk sig frem hinanden for luft, det var her han lænte sig ind til hende, ” i have missed this, i really have, gussing you know why i keept my distance now?.” Lød det ganske enkelt som en hvisken, fra Shin af. ”Anyway, if we wanne have a more intimt talk, we should proably, find a place next time ”Lød det en smule legende fra ham, det var ikke fordi han ikke, ville være sammen med hende, han havde haft hans afstand, men mere fordi deres følelser ikke skulle bringe dem i problemer.

*Springer lidt xD *
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Som han trådte væk fra hende, kunne man se at flokkens resterne medlem kom ind uvidende, hvad de havde haft gang i, men for at tale om det Margo nu, skulle tale med folk om. Shin satte sig til højre for Margo, som de begynder med at tale om de ting der nu skulle ske. Da de ville være færdig ville de andre rejse sig og forlade dem, igen så de var alene ved bordet, ”is there anything els ? Lød det fra Shin, medmindre hun stoppet ham ville han smutte, men hvis hun bedte ham om at blive ville han stoppe op hvor han stod.

Emne: Sv: I can't do this all by myself Fre Apr 03, 2020 6:10 pm

Hjertet bankede voldsomt. Det var restløs. Hun var ude på dybt vand, og det var et spørgsmål om tid før hun ikke kunne svømme ind på land igen. Alligevel følte hun sig så sikker. Shin havde den effekt på hende, at han kunne få hende til at føle sig sikker i sin sag. Som at hun rent faktisk var i stand til at gøre de ting, som hun satte sig for. Margo vidste dog også, at det dummeste hun kunne gøre var at udfordre Lorenzo. Han var trænet i kamp og havde været van til den adfærd flokken havde, hun var også vokset op i dens brutalitet. Styrke var højest sat. Frygt var respekt. Hvis hun dræbte ham, ville folk frygte hende - og det var ikke det hun ønskede at være kendt for. Margo havde et bånd med folket, men var det nok til at lade. "Maybe," sagde hun så og kløede sig lidt i nakken. Nervøsiteten spredte sig ud i systemet. "You can stay if you want. I really don't feel like being alone," indrømmede hun og satte sig stille op på bordet bagved sig. Hun så imod ham og sank en klump. Uvidende om han ville gå eller blive.

Emne: Sv: I can't do this all by myself Fre Apr 03, 2020 9:35 pm

As he got ready to move, he heard her maybe, he did not want to pry. But hell, this was, just not how they could keep living their life’s, they had to make this something more, he could not take the fact that it still was a hidden romance. His eyes turned around as he heard, her voice, that she stated she did not want to be alone, he then walked over to her sitting at her side, slowly putting his arms around her, and his head against hers as they sat their he could fell his heart, beating with hers, there was something about this, a thing he had never had with any other girls. He looked at her trying to figure out what to say, it was just like it was never enough.

“I loved you I hope you know that, but I cant keep hiding my feelings in the pack, I have been keeping my distance to hide it from Lorenzo, but I cant keep doing it, I want to be with you but not Like this Margo, I need you.” When he spoked the last words, he looked her deep in the eyes, before his lips meet hers in and intents felling, as he closed his eyes and looked at her.

“I long for you, I need you, you are the only thing I can’t be with, and when I see you with him, it keeps me awake at night.” He stated when their lips finally let go of each other, he knew werewolve’s and wolf made partners for life, most of the time, but he wanted to know, if she felt the same way or if she just where playing with him, even though he kind of knew the answer deep inside..

Emne: Sv: I can't do this all by myself Fre Apr 03, 2020 11:29 pm

He sat down and she listened to him talk. Margo closed her eyes and took a deeper breath in. She understood why it was hard, especially when you had to hide something like emotions. Margo opened her eyes again, as he said he needed her. However, before she could respond his lips had placed themselves on hers. Margo felt everything, and it was scary. All these feeling rushing over her was terrifying, because she knew what it meant. Margo had never loved Lorenzo, not in a romantic way. But she had tried. Shin had chosen a woman with a fate she had no control over. Margo had never had a say in becoming the luna, it was her mother who had made that choice for her. "I loved you too," she whispered folding her lips. Margo whished for it to be easier or just to give her options.
"I don't think I've truly loved anyone but you," she took a deeper breath in as she confessed her feelings. It was hard to see her with someone else, she understood that. It was hard as well to be with someone you had never chosen. "But I long for you too.. I need you as well.. And he is not gonna come back here for a while. We have time. To just.. live a little."

Emne: Sv: I can't do this all by myself Lør Apr 04, 2020 12:08 am

When she said the words, spoke out, that she did love him too, it made him more in control. He looked at her when she said the words, he had heard 1000 times before, now after they had said the feelings for each other and it hurt him, even hearing it. He then looked at her, “how long are we going to stay hidden, are you not tired of the lies, and even if we stay quiet about it how long will be keep up the act.” He said as he looked at her with eyes there was trying to figure out, what all this would end with, “will be just always be hidden in this way, not being together because how it is now I just, I need to know if there is a light, on the end of the tunnel, or are we just going to be in the dark forever.”

After those words where spoken he took a deep breath trying to calm himself, it was hard being in a love with one and living on a lie, to hide it maybe that was the thing that, hurt him the most that he need to keep it hidden.

“ I am sorry Margo, I just don’t want our relationship, to be build on a lie, its not healthy for us, and if it takes to beat Lorenzo, then we have to do it I know, you don’t like violence and I understand, but it seems like what the pack cares about is strength and fear, am I wrong ?” He said as he looked at her, trying to sipher out, what they could do for helping themselves and the pack.

Emne: Sv: I can't do this all by myself Lør Apr 04, 2020 12:15 am

She couldn't ask him to live a lie. It wasn't fair. Margo never put her own feelings first. It was something she was taught a long time ago. Just the talk about putting down Lorenzo, it was shattering her, because she cared about him. Margo had known Lorenzo since they were children, she couldn't just put him down. "I can't," she closed her eyes and looked down. "I'm not a killer, Shin. I'm will not kill my own people," she pointed out and opened her eyes once again. There were lines you couldn't cross, and she knew this. There was no place where she could or wanted to murder Lorenzo, even if she wanted to take his place - there had to be another way. However, she was beginning to fear that there wasn't. "I don't want you to live in the shadows. I just want you to be happy" her voice almost broke down saying the last word. It was heart breaking to set someone free, but she had done it once before. He deserved someone better than her, someone who could give him everything he wanted in life. "I don't deserve you.. and you know it. I belong here, being who I am. I shouldn't try to change things. It's too risky."

Emne: Sv: I can't do this all by myself Lør Apr 04, 2020 12:30 am

As Margo said she should not try to change things he already disagree, even when it came to hiding himself, “ I.. aint saying we have to, I am saying maybe it could work, but I am with you if you wane be able to change the pack for the better I am with, you in a place where we don’t hide from the people would be nice, but I guess what I am trying to say is, I will wait for you, and my heart only beats for you, it is said wolfs chose partners for life, that they chose who they love and it wont change, this is why I cant no one can replace you and I don’t want another girl I want you Margo.”

He stated, as his eyes looked at her, before his lips then meet hers again, “if anyone can change old things its you, I have never been good at this with words, and stuff, but I just wanted to point out, I can wait just don’t make me wait a 100 years that’s all, I am with you and, we can be together like you said when he is not here, I don’t mind the shadows if this is as real, as I think and we both know it is maybe, its worth waiting on, being able to not stay in the shadows. “

He noted as he bit his lower lips, and he laide his hands around hers, “whatever you want I am here, just don’t ask me, to leave you, because I will never be able to find one like you, after my girlfriend died I never thought there was love again until I found you, you are the piece there complete me Margo.”

Emne: Sv: I can't do this all by myself Søn Apr 12, 2020 10:51 pm

His choice of words took her by a surprise. Maybe she had just forgotten that there was a life where someone might love her. Margo had always been forced to duty and never quite to love when it was all she wanted. He wanted her, he said he wanted her. The speech took her breath away and she for a short moment had forgotten how to inhale air. She didn't even had a shot before his lips once again met with hers. The thought of them having a future away from Lorenzo wasn't new, it was old and a thing she had dreamed of before. Margo was lost for words. He deserved better, a better chance than her. "But you deserve so much more than what I can offer you Shin," she confessed. He knew that, even if he was willing to hide in the shadows and play his part. What life was that even to offer him? What if she couldn't change thigns and Lorenzo stayed in power. He would kill them both for treason.

Emne: Sv: I can't do this all by myself Man Apr 13, 2020 6:19 pm

When she said that he deserved so much more than her he sighed, “don’t you dare think that there is nobody I rather want to be with than you, so you don’t get to say that.” He said as he then looked at her, he would die for her even if it meant that he would have to fight for her, against Lorenzo. hopefully it would never come to that, and her plan would work or they would be able to be together. As his eyes looked into Margo’s he sends her a slight smile, his arm around her still, as they sat there in silence shortly after the silence got interrupted with a sound.

Shins stomach giving out a sound, “we should probably get some food you wane join me, maybe we can, stop at a hotel after.” He said in a whisper, “been a while since we where last together, without any pack relate stuff.”
The last things he whispered, to her, "any special kind of food you are dying for.” He joked, just to get their attention back towards something happy, about just those two, could have without any pack members nearby. His eyes fixed at her and looking into hers. “I will even let you chose place to eat and if you want to do something, after just no singing,” he said in a joking voice, but if she wanted to do it he would not mind at all. It was another way for them to let go and enjoy their time, when Lorenzo was gone and at least they could have this when they where alone.